so today is mothers' day. what did u do for ur mum? did u get her a present? did u do something special for her? or u did nth?
well as for me, i wanted to buy her a present. but seriously, i don't know what to get for her. so i just decided to wish her and gave her a kiss. to me, actions speak louder than words. lol. decided to stay home for the day and then have dinner with her together as a family. pretty nice plan.
its been a pretty long time since i did some self reflections.
hmmmmm. where should i start? ok, after this coming june holidays, ky and jm will be even way ahead of me. ky will be in 3 more runs and jm for like 2 bah i think. one of them is the 42.195 km marathon. woah right? hell yeah. i wanted to join in, but i'm afraid my knee can't take it.
i myself don't even dare to run long distance alone from changi to east coast like jm, mostly due to the fact that where am i gonna get help if my knee decides to screw up. this knee can even hurts when i'm walking home. stamina wise, i don't think i'm very far behind them but if this keeps up, then sooner or later, they'll be way ahead of me. so i have to find a way to strengthen my knees fast. walking home everyday is showing some signs but still very slowly. like i've always say, i don't want to start straining my knees if it haven't really heals. what worries me now is my toe, its so long since the sentosa trip but its still hurts.
i have to seriously recover and get myself back into shape soon. i wanna break into the 9 minutes 2.4 barrier once again. once i think my body is ready, its mind over body.
as for bball. pretty much the same old me, suck on shooting. i think we seriously need to get some energy out there nowadays cause we are like losing most of the time already, come on guys, we know what we can do, so don't under perform man.
hmmmmm, i'm 18 this year and compared to kobe, i'm very far behind. he's in the nba draft at this age and i sitting in front of the com thinking of being at the draft. lol. its pretty true that singaporeans won't make it big in terms of sports but then again, nothing is impossible ain't it?
i've always believe that we should tab into our abilities and used them to the fullest, but however, its a waste that i didn't think like wise way back in the secondary sch days. wasted the chance to tab into my talent by skipping a whole lot of bball trainings. lol. biggest regrets of my life up till now, too bad that i matured too late.
but i still believe that if i work hard now, its still not too late. i mean come on, how late is late? if u believe, have faith and work towards ur goal, i'm sure u'll succeed, even if u fail, u know that u've tried ur best.
life's nowadays are pretty care free and nice. sch during weekdays weren't boring all the times. its true 1e05 split into different classes, but still, we do meet up in the e business centre like almost everyday, so its pretty ok. as for 2e01? getting pretty much in sync with them already, wasn't much of a problem as there are ruixin, debbie sis, samuel, xue ping, anton, farah and wang zai in that class. familiar faces in an unfamiliar environment.
learning to open up to ppl more, matured too late in this aspect also, but then, not that bad also bah, as in, not too late i guess.
brothers wise, meeting up on weekends every weeks and some weekdays too if we are really free. everyone's busy with their own stuff, this is the way life is. we can't always be so free like the post o's period. lol. like we've said, as long as the brotherhood is there, nth will go wrong. unless someone decided to stir trouble up once again, but i think its highly and close to impossible. what's left in our group are those really loyal ones.
so pretty much getting used to the life i'm leading now, pretty much satisfied. as for relationships? i'm such a failure, so lets not huan loh too much. walk one step, see one step.
hmmmmm. done with a quick reflection. nth to do now, sian.
i want you to know,
with everything i won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul.
i'll hold on to this moment you know, 'as i bleed my heart out to show
and i won't let go.
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Sunday, May 11, 2008
Thursday, September 27, 2007
i realised that my brothers have blogged about life, success and studies. so now i'm gonna do my own piece now. well, i'm the latest so far, slow as usual.
the post may be a long one. it may also be a short one. depending on me. i'm not in my usual "thinking" mode nowadays. maybe its brain lag due to the prolong study break. justin made a very nice post on singapore's close to perfect yet fucked up education system. it made ky and me laughed our butts off like some kukus.
seriously, singapore is pushing its students to their limit which in my point of view is good. human beings need to be pushed. but then again, all these pushing made them less prepared to face adult life as compared to students from other countries. irony ain't it? one of the best education system in the world produces top quality certs but idiots in life.
take a good look at asher goh and me. he was in 4b and i'm in 4e. he's was second from the front and mine was second from the back in terms of express stream. he tok-ed me fair and square in studies. he can do maths with his eyes close and his brain only running at 50%. i do maths with my eyes close also and my brain running at 0% and 100% at the same time. y? cause during exams, i simply felt hopeless. not actually feeling hopeless throughout.
it goes like this. days before exam, i will go like this. "ha! maths? no kick. all i need to know is the concept and formula. the rest no need huan loh. i'm tensai. tensai no need to study" and continue to slack. day before exam. "tml's maths, ok lor, take out textbook look at formulas lor".
before exam, how hard can it get? i got the concepts and formula so no prob. normally exercises also can do, scared for what? exams started. was full of confidence and do the first few questions with my brain running at its max. was so contented with it as i simply can do them! comments at that time? i'm a tensai! but as i proceed with the paper, i got more and more hopeless. not desperate. i wanna find the answer and my brain is running at 100%, but the output reflects 0% of effort being put it. comments? even tensai fails at times.
so in the end, i ended up calculating not how much i've scored but how much i've lost. ppl around me are also bending their heads down calculating, but they are doing the questions. as for me? i'm calculating to kill time.
after the exam. the scene is chaotic. ppl are screaming, kao pei-ing, whining and cheering. as for me? i don't whine like some fuckers who lost just 1 or 2 marks. i don't celebrate like some other fuckers as they are having a's once again or finally. i just kept quiet and was amazingly calm. deprived of feelings and lost for what expression am i supposed to make. i'm disappointed yet relieved. disappointed that i won't pass and relieved because the exam is over. comments? the tensai will be back.
ppl are discussing on the answers but i don't even bother to join in the conversations. ppl asked me how i faired and i just simply answered "fail" without a single sign of emotion. moments later, ppl are still huan loh-ing about the god damn paper but my mind is already cleared of it and was probably already talking crap with my brothers and enjoying my lunch.
see it? i suck at maths and my studies as compared to asher but that doesn't mean my iq is lower than his. true, his results are way better than mine but give him a real life situation, he may cock up. ok. here's the scenario.
near asher's house are 2 supermarkets. ntuc and cold storage. asher's mother asked him to go and buy apples for her from ntuc but ntuc is out of stock. asher went home to tell his mum that ntuc is out of stock and ended up being scolded like some kuku.
for ppl like me and my brothers, ntuc is out of stock, then go cold storage to check it out. in the end, bought apples home for my mum. result? mum's happy and u won't kena scolding.
see the diff? irony of the best education system. and now, what in the world is success? click on this link and u will know. go on, click on it, know it then continue reading this post.
now. u already know the definition of success. but so what if u know the definition? are u successful? do u know how to make success come true?
success comes to those who nv gives up. its true. so what if u failed? just keeping on trying. but don't keep on trying the same strategy for the same problem.
look at me, i want to go to university and i thought jc will be the fastest route. i went in, i can't take it, i came out, i failed. but so what? i tackled the problem from another angle, i went to poly, hope i can do well and go to university! although it takes one more year as compared to jc, but i still reach my target. i will still succeed if i make it through poly. hastes leads to waste.
everyone knows that i want to be a real good shooting guard and i'm nv good from the start. even until now, i don't consider myself a good shooting guard, but i'm still trying. as long as i don't give up, i can still do it.
to me, in order to succeed and win others, we need to first overcome our greatest enemy and that's ourselves.
in order to be a good sportsman and beat others, u need to overcome ur own limits and beat ur best performance in order to improve and beat others. for me, i want to dunk, i'm pushing myself to the limit and am jumping higher as i push myself. see that?
in order to get good grades, u need to overcome ur own worldly desires and get ur ass down to study. its not that i support studying, but in singapore, this is the only way. its not like we can hang around and hope that guan yin ma will bless us. cause if this is the way out, everyone won't be studying but praying now.
so as long as u are able to beat ur ownself, ur chances of succeeding will greatly increase.
then again. why do we want to succeed? for what purpose? why do we live? is it real we live just to find our purpose in life? our purpose to succeed? well, these are some stuff for me to ponder over.
ok. i've said my piece. meeting brothers early tml to hang out and check out on some stuff. again, its challenging myself to wake up early.
the post may be a long one. it may also be a short one. depending on me. i'm not in my usual "thinking" mode nowadays. maybe its brain lag due to the prolong study break. justin made a very nice post on singapore's close to perfect yet fucked up education system. it made ky and me laughed our butts off like some kukus.
seriously, singapore is pushing its students to their limit which in my point of view is good. human beings need to be pushed. but then again, all these pushing made them less prepared to face adult life as compared to students from other countries. irony ain't it? one of the best education system in the world produces top quality certs but idiots in life.
take a good look at asher goh and me. he was in 4b and i'm in 4e. he's was second from the front and mine was second from the back in terms of express stream. he tok-ed me fair and square in studies. he can do maths with his eyes close and his brain only running at 50%. i do maths with my eyes close also and my brain running at 0% and 100% at the same time. y? cause during exams, i simply felt hopeless. not actually feeling hopeless throughout.
it goes like this. days before exam, i will go like this. "ha! maths? no kick. all i need to know is the concept and formula. the rest no need huan loh. i'm tensai. tensai no need to study" and continue to slack. day before exam. "tml's maths, ok lor, take out textbook look at formulas lor".
before exam, how hard can it get? i got the concepts and formula so no prob. normally exercises also can do, scared for what? exams started. was full of confidence and do the first few questions with my brain running at its max. was so contented with it as i simply can do them! comments at that time? i'm a tensai! but as i proceed with the paper, i got more and more hopeless. not desperate. i wanna find the answer and my brain is running at 100%, but the output reflects 0% of effort being put it. comments? even tensai fails at times.
so in the end, i ended up calculating not how much i've scored but how much i've lost. ppl around me are also bending their heads down calculating, but they are doing the questions. as for me? i'm calculating to kill time.
after the exam. the scene is chaotic. ppl are screaming, kao pei-ing, whining and cheering. as for me? i don't whine like some fuckers who lost just 1 or 2 marks. i don't celebrate like some other fuckers as they are having a's once again or finally. i just kept quiet and was amazingly calm. deprived of feelings and lost for what expression am i supposed to make. i'm disappointed yet relieved. disappointed that i won't pass and relieved because the exam is over. comments? the tensai will be back.
ppl are discussing on the answers but i don't even bother to join in the conversations. ppl asked me how i faired and i just simply answered "fail" without a single sign of emotion. moments later, ppl are still huan loh-ing about the god damn paper but my mind is already cleared of it and was probably already talking crap with my brothers and enjoying my lunch.
see it? i suck at maths and my studies as compared to asher but that doesn't mean my iq is lower than his. true, his results are way better than mine but give him a real life situation, he may cock up. ok. here's the scenario.
near asher's house are 2 supermarkets. ntuc and cold storage. asher's mother asked him to go and buy apples for her from ntuc but ntuc is out of stock. asher went home to tell his mum that ntuc is out of stock and ended up being scolded like some kuku.
for ppl like me and my brothers, ntuc is out of stock, then go cold storage to check it out. in the end, bought apples home for my mum. result? mum's happy and u won't kena scolding.
see the diff? irony of the best education system. and now, what in the world is success? click on this link and u will know. go on, click on it, know it then continue reading this post.
now. u already know the definition of success. but so what if u know the definition? are u successful? do u know how to make success come true?
success comes to those who nv gives up. its true. so what if u failed? just keeping on trying. but don't keep on trying the same strategy for the same problem.
look at me, i want to go to university and i thought jc will be the fastest route. i went in, i can't take it, i came out, i failed. but so what? i tackled the problem from another angle, i went to poly, hope i can do well and go to university! although it takes one more year as compared to jc, but i still reach my target. i will still succeed if i make it through poly. hastes leads to waste.
everyone knows that i want to be a real good shooting guard and i'm nv good from the start. even until now, i don't consider myself a good shooting guard, but i'm still trying. as long as i don't give up, i can still do it.
to me, in order to succeed and win others, we need to first overcome our greatest enemy and that's ourselves.
in order to be a good sportsman and beat others, u need to overcome ur own limits and beat ur best performance in order to improve and beat others. for me, i want to dunk, i'm pushing myself to the limit and am jumping higher as i push myself. see that?
in order to get good grades, u need to overcome ur own worldly desires and get ur ass down to study. its not that i support studying, but in singapore, this is the only way. its not like we can hang around and hope that guan yin ma will bless us. cause if this is the way out, everyone won't be studying but praying now.
so as long as u are able to beat ur ownself, ur chances of succeeding will greatly increase.
then again. why do we want to succeed? for what purpose? why do we live? is it real we live just to find our purpose in life? our purpose to succeed? well, these are some stuff for me to ponder over.
ok. i've said my piece. meeting brothers early tml to hang out and check out on some stuff. again, its challenging myself to wake up early.
Sunday, June 24, 2007
greeted shamir for a birthday wish through friendster. and this is what i had back from him.
YO!! YO!!
Jeremy...
MANY THANKS FOR THE B'DAY WISH!!
well.. u were a great cadet..
so far of all the cadets i've seen,
u were the one who really changed alot.. improved remarkably..
U used to slack but became more active and enthusiastic in NCC..more dilligent & discipline i say..
well.. the Part B/C's in the year 2005-2006
You took charge of, they found u a good leader..
I'm proud of it.. :)
so keep up the good work man!!
Well.. take good care of urself & study hard okay..
in future Jeremy,
i want You to be someone special okay..
according to my usual respond. i'll click on his link and view his profile. saw a photo with a certain caption that caught my entire attention for that split moment.
caption: my boys.. all grown up now.. All the best guys.. do urselves proud..
caption: my boys.. all grown up now.. All the best guys.. do urselves proud..i'm the skinny shit whose standing second from the left. and infront of us were shamir and hashvin. great times. under the great leadership of shamir. only respect to him. nth else.
i know, u ppl will be laughing your asses off now. i looked like one cock right? i think so too. ppl do change, everyone do look cock at times. but the main point isn't that i looked like one cock, its the caption and the comment.
many a times, i've wondered if i've matured in the course of my secondary sch life or not? even the slightest bit. and now, after what shamir, a respected guy by me, had said. i do feel that i've kinda changed for the better. boys do grow up. not just physically. but mentally too.
and also, maybe a times, i'll wonder if i will be this successful in ncc if shamir was not around to guide me. will i be the one who grew the most if i'm not under his lead? from a slacker to someone who know right from wrong? a nth to a supernumerary staff sergeant?
being lead by a supernumerary himself really is different. i achieved something shamir did. walked in the same league as him. but i still feel immature when i see him. i still have alot to learn. whatever i taught my cadets, are stuff that i learnt from him. but i still think that i've nv reached his standard. i hope i'm as good as him.
now, he said that he hope i will be someone special. after seeing it. i'm motivated and at the same time, lost. someone special? what am i gonna do? afterall, i'm someone without an aim. maybe i do have some. but they, however are unrealistic. at least in singapore.
which one of you knew singapore's whole national bball team? can i really be someone special in this league eventhough i have faith in it? my time is almost up. not saying that i'm dying. but i'm 17, and soon, i won't have the time to achieve what i want. to become an outstanding shooting guard. i only have 1 year left. i can't do anything by myself, so i've assembled myself a bball team with my brothers.
center: justin
power forward: jun ming
small forward: joshua
shooting guard: me
point guard: khai yew
how long can we last? i'm not saying our brotherhood. it'll last a lifetime. i'm referring our bball venture. seriously, after assembling them, we've become quite formidable. rarely lost. but we can't do it for long. afterall 3 of them are in jc. a levels is next year and they have their respective ccas too. after a's, its ns. what should i do? with just jm and i? afterall, we 2 only got one more year than them before facing the same fate as them.
after ns, i think we'll be busy with our lives. afterall living in singapore is all about chiong-ing. how? will i become great? 1 year. its not very long, but its not very short too. what can i achieve?
sometimes i wished that time would stop, but it just won't. with every seconds that's ticking by, it means that i'm 1 second older, i'm one second closer to death. i don't wanna die without accomplishing what i've always dreamt of.
knee injury? off with it, i've endured it for so long because i don't wanna give up without trying. i wished that i'm more talented, more gifted but as everyone is improving greatly in my team, i'm only moving forward in a very slow pace. how? i've reached my limit? haix.
utterly lost for words now. gonna slp and it'll be intensive weight lifting later on.
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
yeah! i'm back. well. there's things to be happy about, things to really reflect about, things to feel totally sianned about, things to be shocked about and maybe things to be proud about?. here i go. warning: this post may be boring.
first up. things to really be sianned about. know what? my mp3 went bonkers. reason number 1. the guidebook was so brief that it did not teach me how to set aside some capacity for usage as a removeable disk. my guidebook was so different from kjm's one as according to him. so i anyhow transfered some stupid files from the com in my sch's lab to my mp3. reason number 2. guess what? the sch was so budget. or maybe i'm just suay. my com was slower than the other's com. and it hang at the final moment. if i have the time, i will slowly take my time. switch of the com and then pull out my mp3. but the freaking prob is that the other class is coming in. bo bian. just pulled out my mp3, seh the com and get the hell out of there.
was so sianned at first, but brighten up later. happy go lucky. plus i got a secret weapon. and that's warranty. wahahahahaha. so don't huan loh. just relax. hahahahahaha.
after sch, met up with kjm. then walked all the way with him to my house. wanna check my mp3 and see if its working. while on the way, jm taught me how to use my mp3 the correct way. still, damn the book. got home, checked my mp3. its removeable disk worked normally. but not its mp3 function. its dead. lol. damn it. nvm. got warranty. lol. simply suay. my bro got mp3. same as mine. but his is functioning really properly.
now, things to reflect about. after i got home, walked around my house looking for my mum. there i saw here squatting in the toilet and washing it. all tired and worn out. she came out and asked me to take the laundry in for her. she's too tired to do it alone. and here's an extract of what we talked about while we were taking the laundry in together.
me: how come nv ask younger bro to do the job?
mum: haix, i did asked. but look at him, what is he doing? watching tv. i was looking forward for u to come home. only u will and can help me out. i don't depend on ur siblings. they don't help out. sometimes they don't even react.
a simple conversation, but it has alot of meanings. seriously, that made me reflect. is it because i'm the eldest son of the family that i have the responsibility to help out and face the pressure my parents' gave? or is it because that i'm the most dependable children among us?
is this the root to why my mum will always nag at me? is this the reason why my father treats me abit more unfairly, hoping that i understand the reason behind it? is this the reason why my dad would drag me into the room and have a private talk with me whenever he's going overseas? is this the reason why my mum is always so paranoid about me staying out late?
am i ready for the task? am i matured enough to take on this pressure and share my family's burden? i seriously don't know. they pin high hopes on me. not academically, but in the way i contribute to the family affairs. and one bad point about me. i always don't live up to people's expectations. i seriously don't know if i can do it or not.
things to be happy about? well. its simple. finally met up with josh like after one or two weeks? lol. its good to see another brother. pool session later. not sure whether if i will make it or not. running out of cash. and my mum's sort of hope that i stay home. see how bah.
had dinner together with ky, justin, jm, waikit and josh lor. and played basketball after that. was itching all over to play bball. fun time bah. waikit played one match and left.
so yah. first round. 3 on 2. justin and i vs josh, waikit and jm. ky didn't play. his leg pain. erm. justin and i won the match. sort of found out that i'm off for ytd. didn't really shoot the ball well. relied on justin for some points. but was quite hot defensively. lol. gave josh 3 blocks in the first match as a present.
after that, josh issued a one on one challenge with me. i lost lor. cannot blame. josh is a versatile player. lol. gave josh another block while he was trying to complete a lay up. in return, he gave me one too when i was driving down the lane for a lay up also. nice one lah! a very intensed match i should say. lost 7-6 i think.
played team match again after that. 2 on 2. hmmmmm. played 3 sets. is this 3 sets that made me feel quite proud bah. tried out something new. jm is getting more and more pro and experienced liao. not bad. his trainings do show results.
2 on 2. josh and i vs justin and jm. one sided match? no way. i'm an all star who was not offensively hot ytd. josh was as versatile as usual. justin is playing with more intensity. learnt to use his size to his advantage now. jm leh? he's a rising star. three point pro. can drive decently now. not bad.
first round. josh and i lost. 11-7. erm. in this match, its justin vs me in scoring. going against each other. jm did help justin out. he banged down one three pointer. took josh by surprised. josh helped by assisting me and grabbing rebounds. erm. strategy for first round. usual plan. i remained a ball hogger and tried to take tough shots or drive the lane despite the fact that i know i was cold on the field. missed alot of shots but hit some tough shots too. justin on the other hand gave us a scare by hitting a shot from halfcourt during his first attempt. lol. and he was very hot in the first round. josh and i were at our wits' end trying to stop him.
second round. its where i really feel proud of. lol. josh and i won. 11-6. this time round. i decided to change my tactics. i decided to assist josh. meaning that he will take the scoring load. i'll just find all sorts of ways to give him an open shot. no look pass and behind the back pass were some of the things i did. also. my plan was to take justin and jm by surprise as they will be thinking that i was still planning to hog over the ball. surprised them and confused them up a little. another plan was to wear justin out. he's marking me fulltime i think, so i made him run a little, wasted his energy by making him jump with my fake drive before i skipped the ball to josh for a more easier shot. not bad. my plan worked as plan. justin wasn't that hot in the second round liao.
here comes something that i'm personally feel damn song about. jm lead his side of the team in scoring. josh lead our team in the second round. its good to see ur teammate score. and even better to see ur disciple stepping up to the challenge. lol. second round was josh's and jm's battle. michael kwadon vs kowky bryant. lol. jm knocked down alot of shots with josh guarding him. he even gave josh a block sia. nice one man. should have videoed it down. josh reacted by giving jm a rejection also. wah man. nice. as for me? found the joy in passing the ball and gave jm and justin each a block. lol.
third round. decisive match. each team won 1 game liao. josh and i won. 11-4. reason being, as justin and jm got used to my strategy and focus more on guarding josh. i changed my strategy again. josh and i would split the scoring load. we will assist each other. i surprised them with a lay up first. and on the next possession, i passed the ball to josh for some sort of an open shot. also, we wore justin down. that's the main reason why we dominate the last game. jm tried his best to keep his team in the game. and scored 3 points i think. the other one came from justin. lol.
seriously, justin is playing more intensively now. using his body against me. lol. at one moment. he grabbed a lose ball. used his body to guard the ball by squatting down and i almost analed him. but anal denied. lol. i hit my little brother against his butt. damn. its painful ok? lol.
very fun night of basketball. think that i should pass more and shoot less or have a mix of these two to confuse my opponents. lol.
last part. the surprises. lol. good news and bad news. it depends on how u see it. well, here i go. last year's nba champion miami heat was eliminated from the playoffs in the first round by chicago bulls. woohoohoo. good job chicago bulls, i nv liked heat. =x
another news. western conference's top team, the dallas mavericks is facing a crisis of being eliminated from the first round also by the last seeded golden state warriors. wahahahahaha. if kena eliminated then fun arh. both of last year's nba finalists nv made it pass the first round.
last piece of news. my la lakers is on the brink of elimination also. lost to pheonix 3-1. walao. don't know got hope or not lor. hope kobe bryant can make miracles happen. afterall, he's being named the best player or ultimate scorer in the nba now by fellow nba player, carmelo anthony. an all star player from denver nuggets.
think thats all liao. changing or repairing mp3 later. lol. and damn. my knee hurts now. =(
听妈妈的话 别让她受伤
想快快长大 才能保护她
first up. things to really be sianned about. know what? my mp3 went bonkers. reason number 1. the guidebook was so brief that it did not teach me how to set aside some capacity for usage as a removeable disk. my guidebook was so different from kjm's one as according to him. so i anyhow transfered some stupid files from the com in my sch's lab to my mp3. reason number 2. guess what? the sch was so budget. or maybe i'm just suay. my com was slower than the other's com. and it hang at the final moment. if i have the time, i will slowly take my time. switch of the com and then pull out my mp3. but the freaking prob is that the other class is coming in. bo bian. just pulled out my mp3, seh the com and get the hell out of there.
was so sianned at first, but brighten up later. happy go lucky. plus i got a secret weapon. and that's warranty. wahahahahaha. so don't huan loh. just relax. hahahahahaha.
after sch, met up with kjm. then walked all the way with him to my house. wanna check my mp3 and see if its working. while on the way, jm taught me how to use my mp3 the correct way. still, damn the book. got home, checked my mp3. its removeable disk worked normally. but not its mp3 function. its dead. lol. damn it. nvm. got warranty. lol. simply suay. my bro got mp3. same as mine. but his is functioning really properly.
now, things to reflect about. after i got home, walked around my house looking for my mum. there i saw here squatting in the toilet and washing it. all tired and worn out. she came out and asked me to take the laundry in for her. she's too tired to do it alone. and here's an extract of what we talked about while we were taking the laundry in together.
me: how come nv ask younger bro to do the job?
mum: haix, i did asked. but look at him, what is he doing? watching tv. i was looking forward for u to come home. only u will and can help me out. i don't depend on ur siblings. they don't help out. sometimes they don't even react.
a simple conversation, but it has alot of meanings. seriously, that made me reflect. is it because i'm the eldest son of the family that i have the responsibility to help out and face the pressure my parents' gave? or is it because that i'm the most dependable children among us?
is this the root to why my mum will always nag at me? is this the reason why my father treats me abit more unfairly, hoping that i understand the reason behind it? is this the reason why my dad would drag me into the room and have a private talk with me whenever he's going overseas? is this the reason why my mum is always so paranoid about me staying out late?
am i ready for the task? am i matured enough to take on this pressure and share my family's burden? i seriously don't know. they pin high hopes on me. not academically, but in the way i contribute to the family affairs. and one bad point about me. i always don't live up to people's expectations. i seriously don't know if i can do it or not.
things to be happy about? well. its simple. finally met up with josh like after one or two weeks? lol. its good to see another brother. pool session later. not sure whether if i will make it or not. running out of cash. and my mum's sort of hope that i stay home. see how bah.
had dinner together with ky, justin, jm, waikit and josh lor. and played basketball after that. was itching all over to play bball. fun time bah. waikit played one match and left.
so yah. first round. 3 on 2. justin and i vs josh, waikit and jm. ky didn't play. his leg pain. erm. justin and i won the match. sort of found out that i'm off for ytd. didn't really shoot the ball well. relied on justin for some points. but was quite hot defensively. lol. gave josh 3 blocks in the first match as a present.
after that, josh issued a one on one challenge with me. i lost lor. cannot blame. josh is a versatile player. lol. gave josh another block while he was trying to complete a lay up. in return, he gave me one too when i was driving down the lane for a lay up also. nice one lah! a very intensed match i should say. lost 7-6 i think.
played team match again after that. 2 on 2. hmmmmm. played 3 sets. is this 3 sets that made me feel quite proud bah. tried out something new. jm is getting more and more pro and experienced liao. not bad. his trainings do show results.
2 on 2. josh and i vs justin and jm. one sided match? no way. i'm an all star who was not offensively hot ytd. josh was as versatile as usual. justin is playing with more intensity. learnt to use his size to his advantage now. jm leh? he's a rising star. three point pro. can drive decently now. not bad.
first round. josh and i lost. 11-7. erm. in this match, its justin vs me in scoring. going against each other. jm did help justin out. he banged down one three pointer. took josh by surprised. josh helped by assisting me and grabbing rebounds. erm. strategy for first round. usual plan. i remained a ball hogger and tried to take tough shots or drive the lane despite the fact that i know i was cold on the field. missed alot of shots but hit some tough shots too. justin on the other hand gave us a scare by hitting a shot from halfcourt during his first attempt. lol. and he was very hot in the first round. josh and i were at our wits' end trying to stop him.
second round. its where i really feel proud of. lol. josh and i won. 11-6. this time round. i decided to change my tactics. i decided to assist josh. meaning that he will take the scoring load. i'll just find all sorts of ways to give him an open shot. no look pass and behind the back pass were some of the things i did. also. my plan was to take justin and jm by surprise as they will be thinking that i was still planning to hog over the ball. surprised them and confused them up a little. another plan was to wear justin out. he's marking me fulltime i think, so i made him run a little, wasted his energy by making him jump with my fake drive before i skipped the ball to josh for a more easier shot. not bad. my plan worked as plan. justin wasn't that hot in the second round liao.
here comes something that i'm personally feel damn song about. jm lead his side of the team in scoring. josh lead our team in the second round. its good to see ur teammate score. and even better to see ur disciple stepping up to the challenge. lol. second round was josh's and jm's battle. michael kwadon vs kowky bryant. lol. jm knocked down alot of shots with josh guarding him. he even gave josh a block sia. nice one man. should have videoed it down. josh reacted by giving jm a rejection also. wah man. nice. as for me? found the joy in passing the ball and gave jm and justin each a block. lol.
third round. decisive match. each team won 1 game liao. josh and i won. 11-4. reason being, as justin and jm got used to my strategy and focus more on guarding josh. i changed my strategy again. josh and i would split the scoring load. we will assist each other. i surprised them with a lay up first. and on the next possession, i passed the ball to josh for some sort of an open shot. also, we wore justin down. that's the main reason why we dominate the last game. jm tried his best to keep his team in the game. and scored 3 points i think. the other one came from justin. lol.
seriously, justin is playing more intensively now. using his body against me. lol. at one moment. he grabbed a lose ball. used his body to guard the ball by squatting down and i almost analed him. but anal denied. lol. i hit my little brother against his butt. damn. its painful ok? lol.
very fun night of basketball. think that i should pass more and shoot less or have a mix of these two to confuse my opponents. lol.
last part. the surprises. lol. good news and bad news. it depends on how u see it. well, here i go. last year's nba champion miami heat was eliminated from the playoffs in the first round by chicago bulls. woohoohoo. good job chicago bulls, i nv liked heat. =x
another news. western conference's top team, the dallas mavericks is facing a crisis of being eliminated from the first round also by the last seeded golden state warriors. wahahahahaha. if kena eliminated then fun arh. both of last year's nba finalists nv made it pass the first round.
last piece of news. my la lakers is on the brink of elimination also. lost to pheonix 3-1. walao. don't know got hope or not lor. hope kobe bryant can make miracles happen. afterall, he's being named the best player or ultimate scorer in the nba now by fellow nba player, carmelo anthony. an all star player from denver nuggets.
think thats all liao. changing or repairing mp3 later. lol. and damn. my knee hurts now. =(
听妈妈的话 别让她受伤
想快快长大 才能保护她
Sunday, March 04, 2007
well. today is 4th march. one day after ky's and jm's bday. 2 more days to jun jie's bday and 5 more days to mine. sweet. the 4 of us having bdays with such a nice sequence. 3, 6 and 9. lol. its really fate that allows the 4 of us to know each other and best, become brothers.
seriously haven't been hanging out with brothers for a long time liao. had some sort of gathering last friday. they went to eat sakura buffet, but i had no money so did not went for it. but after their buffet, they called me down to hang out with them. well. i rushed down but josh left. so missed out crapping with him. haix. don't know when we will meet again and have fun. thinking back on those good old days really makes me feel sad. but what can we do? time surely don't stop for human beings. we can only look forward, the past can only be memories. haix.
eventhough i said that but i just can't accept it yet. damn it. we all thought that after o's, we will have fun together. but our busy schedule kept us from meeting up. we were either busy with our work or busy with the new jc sch term. and after we met up, i realised how drifted apart we were. i can feel the gap in between us. we used to talk non stop to each other when we were in a group. but now, we need to think so darn hard to start a conversation.
ever since sec 3, our batch from dunman ncc land became so bonded. thanks to the challenges we constantly faced. eventhough we were in different classes, we always meet up during recess and after sch to slack together. sharing secrets, fooling around, talking about lame jokes, pranking and suaning the hell out of each other and most importantly, laughing and enduring the hard times together. damn it. i really miss the good old days man, but this is growing up. people walk in and out of our lifes and i really regretted for not treasuring the time we had together.
now, posting is coming out soon, new sch term is starting soon. new sch, new routine, new environment, new friends, new set of books, new targets in life, etc. but will i ever find brothers that were as crappy, as fun loving and as great as the brothers i knew in dunman sec? thinking about the new faces i am gonna see and the freaking lost feeling i will feel, i seriously miss my brothers man. damn it. i never liked dunman sec in anyway but its this god damn freaking sch that gave me this great group of brothers. they were the few ppl out of 300 plus students from my batch that had the same interests and talent with me. haix. somethings can nv be replaced no matter how hard u search. and brothers, if u all are reading this. don't ever forget me in ur lifetime cause i'll never forget u all. haix. need help, just find me. for my brothers, i will try my very best.
side track abit, josh finally got a new blog up again. it will be fun reading his post. like his post all the time. but too bad. this time round, no more gl-ing and suaning of ppl in his blog. i came up with 2 reasons. 1st, gl-ing ppl really spoils the friendship if they can't take it. 2nd, where do u find an usm who is so spontaneous and so nice to gl. lol. so remember to read josh's blog ppl. lol. talented ok?
anyway, like i mentioned, ytd was ky's and jm's bday. went to meet them after they both had solo lunch at fish and co. went to east point to play pool with them. its the first time i'm playing pool. so was a noob shit. anyway, while playing. we crapped with each other. then they were suppose to do something, that is to check their birth timing and see who is the older one among the 2 of them. but according to ky, he was born at 7 am in the morning, so there is only a 30% chance for jm to be older than ky. lol.
halfway through playing, kelly met up with us. followed by vanda. after 4 hours of pool and while we were playing arcade, annabelle met up with us. lol. after that, jm left and the rest went to eat long john for dinner.
kelly and vanda planned to study for the upcoming common test, so the rest decided to help them out. ky and i were of no help lah, we practically forgot every single shit but annabelle was pro. she taught kelly mole concept. lol. that freaking chapter is damn hard ok? ky and i always catch no bird and heck that kind of questions during exams. lol. jm met up with us again halfway through the study session. while the 3 girls were studying, the 3 boys were crapping full time. jm was our target ytd. ky and i laughed til we had cramps. lol. seriously, we were of no help other than disturbance to the girls.
studied til 10 plus i think then went home. as usual, sent kelly home first. and as for today. need to stay home and be guai kia. lol. think thats all liao bah. haix. new sch term must pia liao. whether i'm ready or not. must see how liao cause its a great jump for me. from a slacker to a chiongster.
lastly, before i go. i'm blasting punk rock with my com and had one hell of scolding from my bossy sis, but i kept quiet. cause quarrelling with an unreasonable human being like her will only waste my time and energy. but! damn u lah. u always blast ur music that only freaks appreciates. and now u are scolding me for doing it? where's ur brain man. 2 years older doesn't mean anything. cause in terms of strength, size and loudness. i'll win. i keep quiet all the time doesn't mean i'm afraid of u. when i reach my limit of tolerance for ppl with the likes of u, no mercy. but til then, peace. for mum and not for u.
khai yew
jun ming
jeremy
jun jie
joshua
justin
dong kai
zheng hong
liang hao
elvis
jun liang
wai kit
ruicheng
kang soon
brothers for life.
seriously haven't been hanging out with brothers for a long time liao. had some sort of gathering last friday. they went to eat sakura buffet, but i had no money so did not went for it. but after their buffet, they called me down to hang out with them. well. i rushed down but josh left. so missed out crapping with him. haix. don't know when we will meet again and have fun. thinking back on those good old days really makes me feel sad. but what can we do? time surely don't stop for human beings. we can only look forward, the past can only be memories. haix.
eventhough i said that but i just can't accept it yet. damn it. we all thought that after o's, we will have fun together. but our busy schedule kept us from meeting up. we were either busy with our work or busy with the new jc sch term. and after we met up, i realised how drifted apart we were. i can feel the gap in between us. we used to talk non stop to each other when we were in a group. but now, we need to think so darn hard to start a conversation.
ever since sec 3, our batch from dunman ncc land became so bonded. thanks to the challenges we constantly faced. eventhough we were in different classes, we always meet up during recess and after sch to slack together. sharing secrets, fooling around, talking about lame jokes, pranking and suaning the hell out of each other and most importantly, laughing and enduring the hard times together. damn it. i really miss the good old days man, but this is growing up. people walk in and out of our lifes and i really regretted for not treasuring the time we had together.
now, posting is coming out soon, new sch term is starting soon. new sch, new routine, new environment, new friends, new set of books, new targets in life, etc. but will i ever find brothers that were as crappy, as fun loving and as great as the brothers i knew in dunman sec? thinking about the new faces i am gonna see and the freaking lost feeling i will feel, i seriously miss my brothers man. damn it. i never liked dunman sec in anyway but its this god damn freaking sch that gave me this great group of brothers. they were the few ppl out of 300 plus students from my batch that had the same interests and talent with me. haix. somethings can nv be replaced no matter how hard u search. and brothers, if u all are reading this. don't ever forget me in ur lifetime cause i'll never forget u all. haix. need help, just find me. for my brothers, i will try my very best.
side track abit, josh finally got a new blog up again. it will be fun reading his post. like his post all the time. but too bad. this time round, no more gl-ing and suaning of ppl in his blog. i came up with 2 reasons. 1st, gl-ing ppl really spoils the friendship if they can't take it. 2nd, where do u find an usm who is so spontaneous and so nice to gl. lol. so remember to read josh's blog ppl. lol. talented ok?
anyway, like i mentioned, ytd was ky's and jm's bday. went to meet them after they both had solo lunch at fish and co. went to east point to play pool with them. its the first time i'm playing pool. so was a noob shit. anyway, while playing. we crapped with each other. then they were suppose to do something, that is to check their birth timing and see who is the older one among the 2 of them. but according to ky, he was born at 7 am in the morning, so there is only a 30% chance for jm to be older than ky. lol.
halfway through playing, kelly met up with us. followed by vanda. after 4 hours of pool and while we were playing arcade, annabelle met up with us. lol. after that, jm left and the rest went to eat long john for dinner.
kelly and vanda planned to study for the upcoming common test, so the rest decided to help them out. ky and i were of no help lah, we practically forgot every single shit but annabelle was pro. she taught kelly mole concept. lol. that freaking chapter is damn hard ok? ky and i always catch no bird and heck that kind of questions during exams. lol. jm met up with us again halfway through the study session. while the 3 girls were studying, the 3 boys were crapping full time. jm was our target ytd. ky and i laughed til we had cramps. lol. seriously, we were of no help other than disturbance to the girls.
studied til 10 plus i think then went home. as usual, sent kelly home first. and as for today. need to stay home and be guai kia. lol. think thats all liao bah. haix. new sch term must pia liao. whether i'm ready or not. must see how liao cause its a great jump for me. from a slacker to a chiongster.
lastly, before i go. i'm blasting punk rock with my com and had one hell of scolding from my bossy sis, but i kept quiet. cause quarrelling with an unreasonable human being like her will only waste my time and energy. but! damn u lah. u always blast ur music that only freaks appreciates. and now u are scolding me for doing it? where's ur brain man. 2 years older doesn't mean anything. cause in terms of strength, size and loudness. i'll win. i keep quiet all the time doesn't mean i'm afraid of u. when i reach my limit of tolerance for ppl with the likes of u, no mercy. but til then, peace. for mum and not for u.
khai yew
jun ming
jeremy
jun jie
joshua
justin
dong kai
zheng hong
liang hao
elvis
jun liang
wai kit
ruicheng
kang soon
brothers for life.
Monday, January 01, 2007
its 2007! a new year with an increased 7% gst! well, that sucks right? but what can we do? government says so, we just follow lor. anyway, a new year means reflection. yah, reflection on the past year. the already gone 2006.
here i go. hmmmmm, i did made a few big accomplishments in 2006. came off 2005 and entered class 4e. well. its not my choice. due to my poor maths results in 2004, the school placed me in class 3e which in turn will become class 4e. but still, i did enjoyed my time in 4e. with that crapper jun jie and all those crazy dnt students like justin, jing han etc. bunch of slackers.
well, 2006 was the first time i wore my red lanyard. yah the lanyard that signifies my power and authority as a staff sergeant. but still, above me, there will be some beings of greater power. the clts. yah. if i am not wrong. the second time i wore my red lanyard. i was pumped by my sir. sir zuotong. its the cca orientation day. we screwed it up. some miscommunication in our operations caused other cca group to think that we used bribery as a sort of gaining cadets. despite my firm ojections, the other bought pizzas. to objective of buying pizzas was to give the ones that put in effort during the orientation and maybe those that joined ncc land. but they got it all wrong and gave the sec 1 students to attract them to join. error in communication. the day ended with a one hell of a scolding with me going hard against sir zuotong. not a nice day to remember. we were already short handed and worse, our usm can't make it due to a workshop. so the rest of the staff had to take care of the situation with many inexperienced cadets running about.
our dear usm was having the adam khoo's workshop and came to have a look. but to his horror, sir zuotong was scolding us. he was shocked. utterly shock when we asked him to go away and treat that he saw nth. well. i should say we did not choose the wrong leader to follow. seeing us being scolded because of his mistake. he cried. well. we all did. 3 out of 5 of the staffs back then. elvis, ky and me. as for the other two. no comments. they took it like nth has happened huh?
anyway, around this time. my basketball idol, kobe bryant did something more than amazing. i was stunned too. on 22nd january 2006, kobe bryant scored 81 points against toronto raptors. second highest points scored in a nba match right after lengend wilt chmaberlain 100 points game. nice? kobe is pro man. too pro.
next was the adam khoo's workshop. should be a fortnight after the cca orientation day. or one week after. i forgot. lasted 3 days. it was on speed reading, mind mapping, o's study methods blah blah blah. and the big finale? a talk about family ties which sent everyone weeping. it did help us in bonding with family for awhile i guess. by the way, the speed reading and other study methods don't work for a slacker like me. a slacker has a slacker way of studying. =x
next should be the racial harmony day bazaar bah. if not wrong. well. that day was havoc. i did not help out at my class outlet at all. y? ncc was shorthanded on that day for carpark duties, i need to be there to inspect the juniors. only i was down there full time. lauzh, ky , elvis and jun liang need to help out with the class outlets. well. as usual, i complained. why does ncc land always have to do all these shit jobs? y not the ncc air? is it because we are a bronze unit and they were gold? well, on that day. had some fun too bah. my class had this dunking machine for the bazaar. we caught ky and dunked him. lol. fun sia. well. what can i say? being sabo and prank is the special privilege our usm always gets. lol. mass lan on that day. havoc sia. tonnes of guai lan-ing and xia lan-ing. as usual. all against ky. i think. he's tough man. always going up against all of us. lol. usm mah. should have more endurance than us.
up next. the advanced drill course aka supernumerary course. yah. the applicants of our unit, sir han teng, ky, me, zh, jun liang and elvis were all selected out of all the many applicants. it was a five day course i think. during that five days. we went through alot of drills classes and tests. we were being trained in sword drills, more complicated arm drills, colour aka flag drills, more complicated foot drills and lastly, slow march. well. i was separated from the others and was all alone in a platoon filled with strangers. well. after five days, my hardwork paid off. i got my yellow lanyard. well, its a good think we turned up for the course instead of running off and playing lan on the day of reporting.
hmmmmmm. what's next? let me think. well. yah. its april i think. she came back to me. yah. jasmine tan. well. what can i say? was so confused back then. she just broke with her ex. jonathan choo. and said she like me again? brothers told me i was a spare tyre until a better man comes along. but still. i started with her again. until may bah. we sort of ended.
anyway, around this time, my dear usm had a growing interest in a girl called wong xin yi and tries to get close to her, with the help of the kwa cousins. lol. never did we thought that this courtship will turn out to be one filled with many ups and downs. lol.
lakers got into the playoffs this seasons but didn't made it far anyway. was eliminated by the phoenix suns 4 games to 3 in the best of 7 series. kobe bryant led the league in scoring with 35.4 points per game but he was not named the mvp of nba. instead steve nash of phoenis suns was named the mvp, second time in a row.
also, around this time was the mid year examinations. the students from 4a to 4d were busily studying. but my brothers and i were slacking away. full time. our special talents. well. to my surprised, i got 2nd in class again this time. despite all the slacking. lol. not bad. quite a great achievement bah. lol.
well, during this period, something happened. dk was kicked out from the group. main cause? ky and me. haix. so sorry bro. we were wrong. in return, the masterplan was formed. clan heads or should i say high council members were sam, ky, me and wen jie.
after that 6th june 2006 was around the corner. plans? we decided to go to our ncc annual camp on 5th june with samuel and wen jie to celebrate 6th june. the so called devil's rebirth? aiyah. i am not satanic, i am not so sure. was chased out by mr rudy. so decided to go to samuel house to fool around. that day was fun. bbq-ing, jiao wei-ing and giving elvis a birthday surpirse. ky decided to confess to xin yi on this particular day too. he hoped that 666 will bring him luck. well. on 4th june 2006, talked to her and we sort of patch back again bah. anyway, that is not the main point. we played til almost 4 plus 5 in the morning, then we slept awhile. lol. ky and me bathe together. lol. shared a bathtub. lol. fun man. talked alot while we slacked in the bathroom for almost 2 hours. lol.
on 6th june 2006. everyone woke up. lethargic. sam and me went for dnt and was scolded for being so sloppy. lol.
during the june holidays, the masterplan high council members went on a trip to pulau ubin. to have fun and also to scout the area. be the pioneers. why? we would bring the rest of the masterplan members back here for fun. one day. we swore it in that day. anyway, we spent the day cycling. it rained in the night and we cycled in the rain to look for a shelter. it was freaking cold. spent the night under a shelter in the resort. one hell of a night.
after that? i spent almost all of my time with brothers. jiao wei-ing and doing dnt. during dnt, jun jie will get spastic when we all get tired. he's the source of fun in dnt. regret for not spending more time with him.
during this time, ky and xin yi progress alot. well, so like u all guessed. i spent most of my time together with them and the kwa cousins in their group outing, or should i say group date? well, i had nth better to do, so might as well help out my brother. its good to see a happy ending. well, it never came. haix.
everyone should be asking, what about my girl yah? well. here is my reason for not going out with her, first, its not like i nv asked her out. out of my 10 attempts from april to july, the results was, mission failed. i was too darn sianned after the chains of failed missions to even call her out again. so i decided to spend time with brothers instead. secondly, she and me was nv meant to be. we had a barrier. a barrier so great for me that i felt uncomfortable. i wasn't me in front of her. the full time jiao wei-ing guai lan slacker jeremy wasn't him at all in front of her. lol. maybe that's because we didn't know each other well at all bah. we started just like that, in a blink of an eye. can't blame anyone. in a relationship to me, there is no right or wrong, only fit or not.
i think it is during this time that we all got interested in fishing, so from there we bought two fishing rods and went fishing almost every weekends. lol. never really caught anything. we were noobs mah. lol. masterplan broke up soon after when wen jie and sam quarrelled.
came prelim bah. she told me that we should keep distance. well. i agreed. in order for her to concentrate on her studies. well. hard time for me. damn hard. anyway, full time slacking since june had became a habit. i can't get down to study. was so distracted with my relationship problems and also, my habit. so was deciding to flung my prelims where in turn, i got third in class. a miracle. yes. second time. luck was on my side. lol.
it is around this time that my brothers started to like playing basketball. so we started playing whenever we have the time. decided to accept jun ming as my one last final apprentice and impart him all my skills to make him more pro than me. lol. with a chance to play basketball almost daily, my long lost skills were slowly regained. during this point of time, i was on the way to regaining my skills while i was at my peak during sec 1. as according to justin, my three pointers improved to around the 60 to 75% range. i was happy, but i soon found out one thing, i really can't play basketball for long, my knee injury started to work up. still remember the sleepless nights due to the pain.
oh yah, before i forgot. there was a break in between the prelims exams, so we decided to celebrate xin yi birhtday at east coast. it was 1st september if i am not wrong. ky brought an ice cream cake to celebrate her birthday, sweet ain't he? but haix. it should be around this time that they ended. love huh? root of all heartaches. urgh.
after prelims came the real thing, the o levels. so everyone was studying even harder. due to the poor prelims results. teachers pushed us even harder. while. the others changed. but not me. i was slacking away again. same problems i faced during prelims kicked in. this time. its harder. we kept our distance still. for the fear that teachers will find out that she is in a relationship and if her mum finds out through our "caring" teachers. its her doomsday. lol. well. i got so pissed during those time. why? to prevent being suspect, she should keep distance from all the boys or just me alone? all the boys right? but nah. she kept distance from only me alone. was so pissed. anyway, ain't this even more suspicious? don't know, don't care, don't bother. it's all over what. just a reflection now. lol.
amidst the distance. i was even more pissed. i thought all along she wanted to study, so i nv disturb her. but in the end. she was playing gameboy advance all the while. almost blow up like a dormant volcano. an eruption from a dormant volcano is even more serious than an eruption from an active volcano. that's what i read and know. thanks to my superhuman effort to control my anger. i ended up giving her attitude only. but the aftermath was already very serious. wonder what will happened if i blew up then? lol.
anyway. we ended, ppl who read my previous post should already knew. o's came. i went unprepared. though the papers were sort of easy except for the physics paper. i am still very afraid now. what if i didn't reach my 14 point mark for l1r5? well. what can i say? you reap what u sow yah? i did not studied, so i should not expect any good grades. lol.
also, before i start my job hunt, the whoe gang went to pulau ubin again. further details about the trip is in the post dated 27th november 2006. =)
after o's i went to work. in fact the days i spent job hunting was even more than the days i actually worked. work for 8 days only. even up til now. i am still waiting for the fliers job. wonder when i can start work. anyway. since after o's, all our brothers did not meet up that often liao. all tied down by work. schooling is better still. cause we still can hang out. haix. nvm, if there's a will, there's a way. we can meet up if we made an effort to. yah?
thats the end of my reflection. so long year 2006 and wecome 2007. hope that everything will be better in 2007. let's hope so. let's hope.
anyway, before i go, its a new year. so i decided to try a new thing. i've added a statcounter in my blog on this new year day. bye ppl. gonna slack now.
here i go. hmmmmm, i did made a few big accomplishments in 2006. came off 2005 and entered class 4e. well. its not my choice. due to my poor maths results in 2004, the school placed me in class 3e which in turn will become class 4e. but still, i did enjoyed my time in 4e. with that crapper jun jie and all those crazy dnt students like justin, jing han etc. bunch of slackers.
well, 2006 was the first time i wore my red lanyard. yah the lanyard that signifies my power and authority as a staff sergeant. but still, above me, there will be some beings of greater power. the clts. yah. if i am not wrong. the second time i wore my red lanyard. i was pumped by my sir. sir zuotong. its the cca orientation day. we screwed it up. some miscommunication in our operations caused other cca group to think that we used bribery as a sort of gaining cadets. despite my firm ojections, the other bought pizzas. to objective of buying pizzas was to give the ones that put in effort during the orientation and maybe those that joined ncc land. but they got it all wrong and gave the sec 1 students to attract them to join. error in communication. the day ended with a one hell of a scolding with me going hard against sir zuotong. not a nice day to remember. we were already short handed and worse, our usm can't make it due to a workshop. so the rest of the staff had to take care of the situation with many inexperienced cadets running about.
our dear usm was having the adam khoo's workshop and came to have a look. but to his horror, sir zuotong was scolding us. he was shocked. utterly shock when we asked him to go away and treat that he saw nth. well. i should say we did not choose the wrong leader to follow. seeing us being scolded because of his mistake. he cried. well. we all did. 3 out of 5 of the staffs back then. elvis, ky and me. as for the other two. no comments. they took it like nth has happened huh?
anyway, around this time. my basketball idol, kobe bryant did something more than amazing. i was stunned too. on 22nd january 2006, kobe bryant scored 81 points against toronto raptors. second highest points scored in a nba match right after lengend wilt chmaberlain 100 points game. nice? kobe is pro man. too pro.
next was the adam khoo's workshop. should be a fortnight after the cca orientation day. or one week after. i forgot. lasted 3 days. it was on speed reading, mind mapping, o's study methods blah blah blah. and the big finale? a talk about family ties which sent everyone weeping. it did help us in bonding with family for awhile i guess. by the way, the speed reading and other study methods don't work for a slacker like me. a slacker has a slacker way of studying. =x
next should be the racial harmony day bazaar bah. if not wrong. well. that day was havoc. i did not help out at my class outlet at all. y? ncc was shorthanded on that day for carpark duties, i need to be there to inspect the juniors. only i was down there full time. lauzh, ky , elvis and jun liang need to help out with the class outlets. well. as usual, i complained. why does ncc land always have to do all these shit jobs? y not the ncc air? is it because we are a bronze unit and they were gold? well, on that day. had some fun too bah. my class had this dunking machine for the bazaar. we caught ky and dunked him. lol. fun sia. well. what can i say? being sabo and prank is the special privilege our usm always gets. lol. mass lan on that day. havoc sia. tonnes of guai lan-ing and xia lan-ing. as usual. all against ky. i think. he's tough man. always going up against all of us. lol. usm mah. should have more endurance than us.
up next. the advanced drill course aka supernumerary course. yah. the applicants of our unit, sir han teng, ky, me, zh, jun liang and elvis were all selected out of all the many applicants. it was a five day course i think. during that five days. we went through alot of drills classes and tests. we were being trained in sword drills, more complicated arm drills, colour aka flag drills, more complicated foot drills and lastly, slow march. well. i was separated from the others and was all alone in a platoon filled with strangers. well. after five days, my hardwork paid off. i got my yellow lanyard. well, its a good think we turned up for the course instead of running off and playing lan on the day of reporting.
hmmmmmm. what's next? let me think. well. yah. its april i think. she came back to me. yah. jasmine tan. well. what can i say? was so confused back then. she just broke with her ex. jonathan choo. and said she like me again? brothers told me i was a spare tyre until a better man comes along. but still. i started with her again. until may bah. we sort of ended.
anyway, around this time, my dear usm had a growing interest in a girl called wong xin yi and tries to get close to her, with the help of the kwa cousins. lol. never did we thought that this courtship will turn out to be one filled with many ups and downs. lol.
lakers got into the playoffs this seasons but didn't made it far anyway. was eliminated by the phoenix suns 4 games to 3 in the best of 7 series. kobe bryant led the league in scoring with 35.4 points per game but he was not named the mvp of nba. instead steve nash of phoenis suns was named the mvp, second time in a row.
also, around this time was the mid year examinations. the students from 4a to 4d were busily studying. but my brothers and i were slacking away. full time. our special talents. well. to my surprised, i got 2nd in class again this time. despite all the slacking. lol. not bad. quite a great achievement bah. lol.
well, during this period, something happened. dk was kicked out from the group. main cause? ky and me. haix. so sorry bro. we were wrong. in return, the masterplan was formed. clan heads or should i say high council members were sam, ky, me and wen jie.
after that 6th june 2006 was around the corner. plans? we decided to go to our ncc annual camp on 5th june with samuel and wen jie to celebrate 6th june. the so called devil's rebirth? aiyah. i am not satanic, i am not so sure. was chased out by mr rudy. so decided to go to samuel house to fool around. that day was fun. bbq-ing, jiao wei-ing and giving elvis a birthday surpirse. ky decided to confess to xin yi on this particular day too. he hoped that 666 will bring him luck. well. on 4th june 2006, talked to her and we sort of patch back again bah. anyway, that is not the main point. we played til almost 4 plus 5 in the morning, then we slept awhile. lol. ky and me bathe together. lol. shared a bathtub. lol. fun man. talked alot while we slacked in the bathroom for almost 2 hours. lol.
on 6th june 2006. everyone woke up. lethargic. sam and me went for dnt and was scolded for being so sloppy. lol.
during the june holidays, the masterplan high council members went on a trip to pulau ubin. to have fun and also to scout the area. be the pioneers. why? we would bring the rest of the masterplan members back here for fun. one day. we swore it in that day. anyway, we spent the day cycling. it rained in the night and we cycled in the rain to look for a shelter. it was freaking cold. spent the night under a shelter in the resort. one hell of a night.
after that? i spent almost all of my time with brothers. jiao wei-ing and doing dnt. during dnt, jun jie will get spastic when we all get tired. he's the source of fun in dnt. regret for not spending more time with him.
during this time, ky and xin yi progress alot. well, so like u all guessed. i spent most of my time together with them and the kwa cousins in their group outing, or should i say group date? well, i had nth better to do, so might as well help out my brother. its good to see a happy ending. well, it never came. haix.
everyone should be asking, what about my girl yah? well. here is my reason for not going out with her, first, its not like i nv asked her out. out of my 10 attempts from april to july, the results was, mission failed. i was too darn sianned after the chains of failed missions to even call her out again. so i decided to spend time with brothers instead. secondly, she and me was nv meant to be. we had a barrier. a barrier so great for me that i felt uncomfortable. i wasn't me in front of her. the full time jiao wei-ing guai lan slacker jeremy wasn't him at all in front of her. lol. maybe that's because we didn't know each other well at all bah. we started just like that, in a blink of an eye. can't blame anyone. in a relationship to me, there is no right or wrong, only fit or not.
i think it is during this time that we all got interested in fishing, so from there we bought two fishing rods and went fishing almost every weekends. lol. never really caught anything. we were noobs mah. lol. masterplan broke up soon after when wen jie and sam quarrelled.
came prelim bah. she told me that we should keep distance. well. i agreed. in order for her to concentrate on her studies. well. hard time for me. damn hard. anyway, full time slacking since june had became a habit. i can't get down to study. was so distracted with my relationship problems and also, my habit. so was deciding to flung my prelims where in turn, i got third in class. a miracle. yes. second time. luck was on my side. lol.
it is around this time that my brothers started to like playing basketball. so we started playing whenever we have the time. decided to accept jun ming as my one last final apprentice and impart him all my skills to make him more pro than me. lol. with a chance to play basketball almost daily, my long lost skills were slowly regained. during this point of time, i was on the way to regaining my skills while i was at my peak during sec 1. as according to justin, my three pointers improved to around the 60 to 75% range. i was happy, but i soon found out one thing, i really can't play basketball for long, my knee injury started to work up. still remember the sleepless nights due to the pain.
oh yah, before i forgot. there was a break in between the prelims exams, so we decided to celebrate xin yi birhtday at east coast. it was 1st september if i am not wrong. ky brought an ice cream cake to celebrate her birthday, sweet ain't he? but haix. it should be around this time that they ended. love huh? root of all heartaches. urgh.
after prelims came the real thing, the o levels. so everyone was studying even harder. due to the poor prelims results. teachers pushed us even harder. while. the others changed. but not me. i was slacking away again. same problems i faced during prelims kicked in. this time. its harder. we kept our distance still. for the fear that teachers will find out that she is in a relationship and if her mum finds out through our "caring" teachers. its her doomsday. lol. well. i got so pissed during those time. why? to prevent being suspect, she should keep distance from all the boys or just me alone? all the boys right? but nah. she kept distance from only me alone. was so pissed. anyway, ain't this even more suspicious? don't know, don't care, don't bother. it's all over what. just a reflection now. lol.
amidst the distance. i was even more pissed. i thought all along she wanted to study, so i nv disturb her. but in the end. she was playing gameboy advance all the while. almost blow up like a dormant volcano. an eruption from a dormant volcano is even more serious than an eruption from an active volcano. that's what i read and know. thanks to my superhuman effort to control my anger. i ended up giving her attitude only. but the aftermath was already very serious. wonder what will happened if i blew up then? lol.
anyway. we ended, ppl who read my previous post should already knew. o's came. i went unprepared. though the papers were sort of easy except for the physics paper. i am still very afraid now. what if i didn't reach my 14 point mark for l1r5? well. what can i say? you reap what u sow yah? i did not studied, so i should not expect any good grades. lol.
also, before i start my job hunt, the whoe gang went to pulau ubin again. further details about the trip is in the post dated 27th november 2006. =)
after o's i went to work. in fact the days i spent job hunting was even more than the days i actually worked. work for 8 days only. even up til now. i am still waiting for the fliers job. wonder when i can start work. anyway. since after o's, all our brothers did not meet up that often liao. all tied down by work. schooling is better still. cause we still can hang out. haix. nvm, if there's a will, there's a way. we can meet up if we made an effort to. yah?
thats the end of my reflection. so long year 2006 and wecome 2007. hope that everything will be better in 2007. let's hope so. let's hope.
anyway, before i go, its a new year. so i decided to try a new thing. i've added a statcounter in my blog on this new year day. bye ppl. gonna slack now.
Saturday, December 23, 2006
hmmmm. there will be sunshine after the rain huh? well ppl, i am not referring to the weather. i am referring to my life. yah. well, during these few days of break before i start work again, i did not waste my time slacking away. indeed, i had plenty of time. i played games to kill time but most importantly, i used this ample amount of time to close in the gaps between my parents and i. things are better now i guess. way better than before. damn, the times before o's are hard, but thanks to those bunch of brothers. i pulled through. now life ain't that rough anymore and i can be more relax now. i have very few things to worry about. not as much burdens as before. i feel light.
anyway, through some very major incidents, i found out that character is the most important factor that bond brothers and couples together bah. what i am trying to mean is that, when ppl of almost the same characteristic and thinking communicate, it is easier for them to understand each other thoughts. whereas the ppl of very different characteristic will mistook one another and conflicts arrive. yah? i think ppl like khai yew, jun jie, jun ming kang soon and dong kai will understand what i mean with ease. being born in the same month and having the same horoscope, jj, jm, ky and me had this sort of special bonds that we understands each other almost instantly. thus this explains for the few conflicts among us. not say that there was nv conflicts among us, but it is very little. on the otherhand, ks was my brother since sec 1 and dk was my brother since sec 2. more or less, as we spend time together, we understand each other better and know what we mean.
but still, there are some ppl that we can be brothers with, but it is harder for them to understand our thoughts. yah? ppl like zheng hong. well. no matter how hard i tried to explain to him at times, he won't understand what i mean. and vice versa. i don't understand his words too. but why is this so? what causes these special bonds among ppl? why can't this person understand that person as well as another party does? why some ppl are able to understand a particular person's thoughts with ease whereas others struggle with it?
is all these incapability to communicate among some party that causes conflicts? is this why some ppl mistook another party's words and actions and thinks negatively when they sees things from only their point of view? is it the failure to communicate or failure to see things from each other point of views that ppl get into conflicts? or is it because of human being's selfishness that sometimes conflicts arouse? or is it due to our protective intuitions at work sometimes, that ppl shoot baseless facts from their mouth in our so called backstabbing in order to protect ourselves that conflicts happened? or is it because one thinks that he or she isn't at fault that they go against those that they was once closed with and find faults in them that ppl have conflicts?
and when conflicts arises, many ppl will take many different ways out. some with get to the bottom of it and talk things out nicely with one another. whereas others will shut themselves off from their usual hangouts and escape. not facing the matter. also, why is it that ppl having different way of solving things? is it because of the term characteristic? is it really this term that some take the blunt and straight forward confrontation to explain things out whereas others take the cowardly method of avoiding the matter or our so called escapism to solve things?
for all these, i can only say that i'm just a kid too. and ppl reading this post. i am not crapping. i meant something here. those ppl that has the so called special bond to me will understand which matter i am directing at. anyway. its pretty obvious.
i know who you are.
anyway, through some very major incidents, i found out that character is the most important factor that bond brothers and couples together bah. what i am trying to mean is that, when ppl of almost the same characteristic and thinking communicate, it is easier for them to understand each other thoughts. whereas the ppl of very different characteristic will mistook one another and conflicts arrive. yah? i think ppl like khai yew, jun jie, jun ming kang soon and dong kai will understand what i mean with ease. being born in the same month and having the same horoscope, jj, jm, ky and me had this sort of special bonds that we understands each other almost instantly. thus this explains for the few conflicts among us. not say that there was nv conflicts among us, but it is very little. on the otherhand, ks was my brother since sec 1 and dk was my brother since sec 2. more or less, as we spend time together, we understand each other better and know what we mean.
but still, there are some ppl that we can be brothers with, but it is harder for them to understand our thoughts. yah? ppl like zheng hong. well. no matter how hard i tried to explain to him at times, he won't understand what i mean. and vice versa. i don't understand his words too. but why is this so? what causes these special bonds among ppl? why can't this person understand that person as well as another party does? why some ppl are able to understand a particular person's thoughts with ease whereas others struggle with it?
is all these incapability to communicate among some party that causes conflicts? is this why some ppl mistook another party's words and actions and thinks negatively when they sees things from only their point of view? is it the failure to communicate or failure to see things from each other point of views that ppl get into conflicts? or is it because of human being's selfishness that sometimes conflicts arouse? or is it due to our protective intuitions at work sometimes, that ppl shoot baseless facts from their mouth in our so called backstabbing in order to protect ourselves that conflicts happened? or is it because one thinks that he or she isn't at fault that they go against those that they was once closed with and find faults in them that ppl have conflicts?
and when conflicts arises, many ppl will take many different ways out. some with get to the bottom of it and talk things out nicely with one another. whereas others will shut themselves off from their usual hangouts and escape. not facing the matter. also, why is it that ppl having different way of solving things? is it because of the term characteristic? is it really this term that some take the blunt and straight forward confrontation to explain things out whereas others take the cowardly method of avoiding the matter or our so called escapism to solve things?
for all these, i can only say that i'm just a kid too. and ppl reading this post. i am not crapping. i meant something here. those ppl that has the so called special bond to me will understand which matter i am directing at. anyway. its pretty obvious.
i know who you are.
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
lol. guess what. i am doing something new. i am typing this post at the mac outlet in changi airport. lol. came here to slack after prom. actually. not really slacking. i am accompanying brothers they all to come here and send xinyi off. where is she going? many of you must be wondering right? lol. she is going hong kong for holiday.
ok. today is prom night. only 4 brothers went. jun ming, zheng hong, khai yew and liang hao. hmmm. seriously i am not interested in going prom. i went there for one purpose. to keep my brothers company and to spend time with them before everyone starts to work and have no time for gathering. lol.
meet ky, jm and zh at tampines mrt station and we took a cab down to le meridian hotel at dhoby ghaut. we were damn early i should say. so we decided to walk and slack around the hotel. lol. the hotel is not bad. quite classy.
7 plus and the ceremony started. wait. is ceremony the correct word to use here? lol. heck lah. anyway. yah. we actually debated over which table to sit. i wanted table no. 14, cause it is my favourite number yah? ky wanted table no. 13, his register number. jun ming suggested table no. 1. but we ended up sitting at table no.2. lol. wasted our time debating. lol.
ok. while waiting for the ceremony to start. we decided to take photos for memories. lol. will upload it if i have them. anyway. we sat at the same table with xinyi, hui jing and shing chun.
$55 were not paid for nth. the food were not bad. especially the cakes. choc cakes. lol. anyway. i decided to prank jun ming. ok. they were asking for nominations for the prom king and i scared the hell out of jun ming because i told him i nominated him without him knowing it. lol. so, he started scolding me lor.
anyway. after the nominees were announced. jun ming realised i did not prank him. so u should guess how relieved he was. but! one of the nominess did not turned up. i don't know why lah. ask that bugger. so mrs neo decided to hand pick one scapegoat to replace that bugger. jun ming was that scapegoat. lol. so my wish did come true. lol. 4d also not so zhun sia. also. shing chun was also sabotaged by xinyi they all to become a nominee for prom king. lol. he was damn funny. world peace!
anyway. watching jun ming walking cat walk on the stage was fun leh. lol. so after that. the prom king and prom queen was born. prom king was shiva from my class. actually. expected lah. prom queen was melissa from 4a. erm. what can i say? miracle? a surprise? heaven's will? i don't know. your call. lol.
ok. after that. we decided to cam whore again. this time. took alot of photos. well. as i said. photos next time.
ok. took photos with shamir. so i should say. let's get emo! shamir trully is the senior i respected the most. he is a man with good conduct. he knows what is right and what is wrong. he nevers gives up hope on any thing. no matter how many times we disappointed him. he is a person, who was born for a purpose. he was born to lead slackers and turn them into leaders. since sec 2, after i knew him. he will always be there to clear my doubts. he never scolded us, he will just pulled my whole batch into a room and talk sense into us. i respected him even more when he became the first supernumerary in dunman ncc land. but he nv forgets about us. he led me and show me the way. i became a supernumerary like him. eventhough we are both supernumerary. i nv dared said that i am as good as him. he is just incomparable. he is someone i will nv become. no matter how hard i tried. i still remember the times when i pass out as a third sergeant after spec course. i know i disappointed him greatly. but he pushed me even harder. to make me a staff sergeant i am today. without him. i will nv become a staff sergeant. i won't have my both red and yellow lanyard. so yah. i should thanks shamir for everything. the leader i am today was specially moulded by him. he is my mentor, my friend, my senior and my guardian.
back to main topic. after cam whoring, they decided to go into the ball room to dance. zheng hong went home. he had to work. ok. i suck at dancing. i was just not in the mood. maybe because i was not interested in prom at all. like i said before. i went there to pei bro. lol. so they were dancing away and i was like standing like a log down there? no lah. i did dance abit. lol. ok. anyway, ky was pro at dancing. he was so high. so god damn high.
after the ceremony. we decided to stroll to paragon in search of a lighted christmas tree. lol. so as expected. we took a photo there. lol. here's the fun part. ky's cam only can store one last shot. and it turned out damn nice. ok. like i said alot of times before, photos later when i got them all. good things are worth waiting for yah? but i think we need to wait 13 days for those photos. ok. many of u will go "wth, why so long" right? because the camera man or should i say, ky had to work. simple and sweet reason. so after the photoshot. we decided to walk back to le meridian hotel to cut down on taxi fare. lame i know.
on the way back. we saw poovan and her friends. they were being harrassed by some ah mohs. damn those white buggers. horny shits. ask them to go for breakfast at around 1 am in the morning? wth lah. but nvm. jun ming the hero of the day saved their asses by telling those ah mohs that they were with us.so some other days bah, horny white skin buggers.
after that, we did something gayish. we decided to wait for a merz taxi to take to the airport. we waited for like 15 minutes. lol. ok. while on the taxi. i found out something. there is soneone out there who is even more pro than jun ming at talking cock. so immediately at that instance, he dethroned kjm aka kjw if u invert the 'm' over to become a 'w'. kjw is the short form for kong jiao wei. lol. so, the taxi driver became the new kjw king. hahahahahahaha.
so u should know what happens next. here i am writing this post. lol. ok. ending today's post soon. anyway. this very post was typed by jeremy lim, the owner of this blog account and edited by kwa jun ming, the ex kong jiao wei king. lol. bb
ok. today is prom night. only 4 brothers went. jun ming, zheng hong, khai yew and liang hao. hmmm. seriously i am not interested in going prom. i went there for one purpose. to keep my brothers company and to spend time with them before everyone starts to work and have no time for gathering. lol.
meet ky, jm and zh at tampines mrt station and we took a cab down to le meridian hotel at dhoby ghaut. we were damn early i should say. so we decided to walk and slack around the hotel. lol. the hotel is not bad. quite classy.
7 plus and the ceremony started. wait. is ceremony the correct word to use here? lol. heck lah. anyway. yah. we actually debated over which table to sit. i wanted table no. 14, cause it is my favourite number yah? ky wanted table no. 13, his register number. jun ming suggested table no. 1. but we ended up sitting at table no.2. lol. wasted our time debating. lol.
ok. while waiting for the ceremony to start. we decided to take photos for memories. lol. will upload it if i have them. anyway. we sat at the same table with xinyi, hui jing and shing chun.
$55 were not paid for nth. the food were not bad. especially the cakes. choc cakes. lol. anyway. i decided to prank jun ming. ok. they were asking for nominations for the prom king and i scared the hell out of jun ming because i told him i nominated him without him knowing it. lol. so, he started scolding me lor.
anyway. after the nominees were announced. jun ming realised i did not prank him. so u should guess how relieved he was. but! one of the nominess did not turned up. i don't know why lah. ask that bugger. so mrs neo decided to hand pick one scapegoat to replace that bugger. jun ming was that scapegoat. lol. so my wish did come true. lol. 4d also not so zhun sia. also. shing chun was also sabotaged by xinyi they all to become a nominee for prom king. lol. he was damn funny. world peace!
anyway. watching jun ming walking cat walk on the stage was fun leh. lol. so after that. the prom king and prom queen was born. prom king was shiva from my class. actually. expected lah. prom queen was melissa from 4a. erm. what can i say? miracle? a surprise? heaven's will? i don't know. your call. lol.
ok. after that. we decided to cam whore again. this time. took alot of photos. well. as i said. photos next time.
ok. took photos with shamir. so i should say. let's get emo! shamir trully is the senior i respected the most. he is a man with good conduct. he knows what is right and what is wrong. he nevers gives up hope on any thing. no matter how many times we disappointed him. he is a person, who was born for a purpose. he was born to lead slackers and turn them into leaders. since sec 2, after i knew him. he will always be there to clear my doubts. he never scolded us, he will just pulled my whole batch into a room and talk sense into us. i respected him even more when he became the first supernumerary in dunman ncc land. but he nv forgets about us. he led me and show me the way. i became a supernumerary like him. eventhough we are both supernumerary. i nv dared said that i am as good as him. he is just incomparable. he is someone i will nv become. no matter how hard i tried. i still remember the times when i pass out as a third sergeant after spec course. i know i disappointed him greatly. but he pushed me even harder. to make me a staff sergeant i am today. without him. i will nv become a staff sergeant. i won't have my both red and yellow lanyard. so yah. i should thanks shamir for everything. the leader i am today was specially moulded by him. he is my mentor, my friend, my senior and my guardian.
back to main topic. after cam whoring, they decided to go into the ball room to dance. zheng hong went home. he had to work. ok. i suck at dancing. i was just not in the mood. maybe because i was not interested in prom at all. like i said before. i went there to pei bro. lol. so they were dancing away and i was like standing like a log down there? no lah. i did dance abit. lol. ok. anyway, ky was pro at dancing. he was so high. so god damn high.
after the ceremony. we decided to stroll to paragon in search of a lighted christmas tree. lol. so as expected. we took a photo there. lol. here's the fun part. ky's cam only can store one last shot. and it turned out damn nice. ok. like i said alot of times before, photos later when i got them all. good things are worth waiting for yah? but i think we need to wait 13 days for those photos. ok. many of u will go "wth, why so long" right? because the camera man or should i say, ky had to work. simple and sweet reason. so after the photoshot. we decided to walk back to le meridian hotel to cut down on taxi fare. lame i know.
on the way back. we saw poovan and her friends. they were being harrassed by some ah mohs. damn those white buggers. horny shits. ask them to go for breakfast at around 1 am in the morning? wth lah. but nvm. jun ming the hero of the day saved their asses by telling those ah mohs that they were with us.so some other days bah, horny white skin buggers.
after that, we did something gayish. we decided to wait for a merz taxi to take to the airport. we waited for like 15 minutes. lol. ok. while on the taxi. i found out something. there is soneone out there who is even more pro than jun ming at talking cock. so immediately at that instance, he dethroned kjm aka kjw if u invert the 'm' over to become a 'w'. kjw is the short form for kong jiao wei. lol. so, the taxi driver became the new kjw king. hahahahahahaha.
so u should know what happens next. here i am writing this post. lol. ok. ending today's post soon. anyway. this very post was typed by jeremy lim, the owner of this blog account and edited by kwa jun ming, the ex kong jiao wei king. lol. bb
Thursday, November 23, 2006
ok. today went to pulau ubin. will blog on it some other days after i got all the photos we took.
today. i am going to blog about graduation day which was ytd. well. what can i say? 4 years passed so quickly. what i did in dunman and what happened to me will always be part of me. my past in dunman. those memories. with brothers. with ncc. those girls that i had a relationship with. those fun we had. i can't bear to part with it, as in those fun with brothers. relationship wise. its all just history. but still. we had to move on to another phase of our lifes. another phase which is closer to adulthood.
the graduation day is not bad overall. our sch made a video for us. its quite touching. really. i think i will miss my days in dunman. its the place i grew up and mature the most. to learn and try to be an adult. to try and look from their point of view.
i can't go to jc for the first month. hahahahaha. its what i want anyway. i wanna work. but i still can't find an ideal job yet. haix. nvm. back to the main topic. many band performed during the graduation day. admad's band, the armchair critics came. paging fat bastard, imran's band and some sec 5 band played too. i think that imran's band played the best. imran is damn skilled man. lol. seeing them playing motivated me to pia. lol. the nicest part. the bands joined and sang 99 red balloons. omg. damn nice. they played the rock show too. my target song. lol.
hmmmm. mr lee huan leng returned for the graduation day also. i talked to him like for almost 30 plus minutes? talking to him was nice. he told me alot of stuff. learnt alot from him. and also. wanna thank him. for putting up with 4e dnt student's nonsense. we were so slack. so full of crap and he still nv gave up hope on us. and still encouraged us to work hard and worry for us. my dnt used to suck to the core. but all due to mr tan and his patient teaching. i improved to be one the top guns in my class? lol. ok lah. not so good actually my dnt. lol.
i took a photo with mr bernerd also. well. wait can i say? i use to hate him. for picking on me during sec 2. its for my own good lah. hahahahaha. if it ain't for him. dunman will be in a mess. he is good lah. lol. also. should credit shamir again. for leading us and being my mentor. 4 years in dunman. and he is the only senior i respect. good in personal conduct and discipline. respect everyone and show them the respect they need. he is a role model for me to emulate. but i know. i will nv be like him. he is just born to be a leader. i learnt to be one. that's our difference. talent for shamir and hard work for me. wrong? lol.
most importantly, for the past 4 years. its brothers, yah brothers that went through thick and thin with me. we endured so many problems together. when i am lost and in need of help. they were always there to lend me their helping hand. yah, always them, not my girl at any time or any teachers. they were there to fill me up with their concern and love among brothers when i am all empty inside and drained of any will to move on. if it weren't for them. i won't make it til today. yah? and yah. i owe my brothers an apology for those things that i did that pissed them off. i know i sometimes were not a good brother yah? but there is still time for us to improve everything. i hope.
sec 1 til now. its been 4 years. everywhere in dunman. there are traces of me and my past. they will live with me. maybe in the future i will forget them all. or maybe i won't. what's most important. thanks alot dunman for those great memories.
and lastly. i miss the days back in ncc.
today. i am going to blog about graduation day which was ytd. well. what can i say? 4 years passed so quickly. what i did in dunman and what happened to me will always be part of me. my past in dunman. those memories. with brothers. with ncc. those girls that i had a relationship with. those fun we had. i can't bear to part with it, as in those fun with brothers. relationship wise. its all just history. but still. we had to move on to another phase of our lifes. another phase which is closer to adulthood.
the graduation day is not bad overall. our sch made a video for us. its quite touching. really. i think i will miss my days in dunman. its the place i grew up and mature the most. to learn and try to be an adult. to try and look from their point of view.
i can't go to jc for the first month. hahahahaha. its what i want anyway. i wanna work. but i still can't find an ideal job yet. haix. nvm. back to the main topic. many band performed during the graduation day. admad's band, the armchair critics came. paging fat bastard, imran's band and some sec 5 band played too. i think that imran's band played the best. imran is damn skilled man. lol. seeing them playing motivated me to pia. lol. the nicest part. the bands joined and sang 99 red balloons. omg. damn nice. they played the rock show too. my target song. lol.
hmmmm. mr lee huan leng returned for the graduation day also. i talked to him like for almost 30 plus minutes? talking to him was nice. he told me alot of stuff. learnt alot from him. and also. wanna thank him. for putting up with 4e dnt student's nonsense. we were so slack. so full of crap and he still nv gave up hope on us. and still encouraged us to work hard and worry for us. my dnt used to suck to the core. but all due to mr tan and his patient teaching. i improved to be one the top guns in my class? lol. ok lah. not so good actually my dnt. lol.
i took a photo with mr bernerd also. well. wait can i say? i use to hate him. for picking on me during sec 2. its for my own good lah. hahahahaha. if it ain't for him. dunman will be in a mess. he is good lah. lol. also. should credit shamir again. for leading us and being my mentor. 4 years in dunman. and he is the only senior i respect. good in personal conduct and discipline. respect everyone and show them the respect they need. he is a role model for me to emulate. but i know. i will nv be like him. he is just born to be a leader. i learnt to be one. that's our difference. talent for shamir and hard work for me. wrong? lol.
most importantly, for the past 4 years. its brothers, yah brothers that went through thick and thin with me. we endured so many problems together. when i am lost and in need of help. they were always there to lend me their helping hand. yah, always them, not my girl at any time or any teachers. they were there to fill me up with their concern and love among brothers when i am all empty inside and drained of any will to move on. if it weren't for them. i won't make it til today. yah? and yah. i owe my brothers an apology for those things that i did that pissed them off. i know i sometimes were not a good brother yah? but there is still time for us to improve everything. i hope.
sec 1 til now. its been 4 years. everywhere in dunman. there are traces of me and my past. they will live with me. maybe in the future i will forget them all. or maybe i won't. what's most important. thanks alot dunman for those great memories.
and lastly. i miss the days back in ncc.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
well. as i had promised. photos on wen jie's botak head! lol. enjoy people.
a scene of khai yew cutting wen jie's hair for him. hahaha. its a rare opportunity. really. which barber will allow ppl to have fun in their shop?
lol. after the hair cut. hahahahaha. so funny.
ok. as for today. after i got home from my search for jobs. i began to miss the days back in ncc. i miss everything. the days that we have fun together. the time that we slacked and learnt together. i matured so much while i am in ncc. i am no longer a boy. glad to say that i nv regret joining ncc. but still, i will nv go for clt course. i always feel that life as a clt and life as a secondary sch ncc cadet will be very different. the feeling will nv be the same again. so here are some photos i took. =)
the uniform. this is what separate the man from the boys. lol
my name tag. army style.
yes. i belonged to the glorious dunman unit. to be exact. the united dunman land unit. not the dunman air unit. i don't wanna be a air cadet of my sch. so what if the air unit is a gold unit? to me, they just suck.
the army - ncc badge. the reason why all ncc cadets go for the specialist course.
my barangs barangs. clockwise, my badges, my beret, my yellow lanyard, my red lanyard and my jockey cap.
a typical staff sergeant who went through the senior specialist course.
now this is different. a supernumerary staff sergeant specially trained by the ncc rsm. it is indeed an honour. to be selected out of so many applicants and be trained to become a master of drills.
hahahahaha. acting emo. lol. where is my specs?
the reason why i don't like to wear the beret. i look so weird and funny.
i still think i look nicer with the jockey cap on. plus. the jockey cap won't mess up my hair. lol.
four years just pass so quickly. haix. hope i won't lose contact with the brothers i had known from ncc. they rocks big time. bunch of slackers. and not to forget wen jie, jun jie and rc too. hahahaha. =)
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
went to sch for english consultation today with jun jie. dong kai tagged along. as usual, we crapped throughout. hahahahahaha.
saw wen jie when we were leaving the sch. just a nod of acknowledgement between the two of us. why must things become like this? few weeks ago, we were still so close. calling each other "xiao eh" and "tao eh". did the lack of trust really destroyed our brotherhood? have things took a big cycle and went back to where we were when we were in sec 2? when wen jie and me were enemies?
back in sec 2, we had some bad blood between each other. because of a girl. yah. so back then, my head would be his prize and his ass being my victory. we want each other dead. gone from this world. soon things dead down. because i won the war? or maybe because he gave on hunting me down?
back to our own life. but it seems like it is destinied that our paths would cross again. this time. my brother rc wanted his ass and vice versa. early july. annual cross country. the showdown. almost got into a gang fight. wen jie's cliques versus dunman basketball team. i was there. rc apologised for what he did. it end. but from that day onwards. the tension was even more strained. i wanted his ass more. the victory would be mine. all mine.
came sec 3. damn. wonder if its heaven's will. we are in the same class. i still remember what rc told me. to control my temper. to call him for help if things went out of hand. i still remember. first day of sch. i was prepared for a brawl. one on wen jie's close friend. i was wondering if i would survive. being in the same class as him for 2 years.
a twist of fate? we got close. he wanted me to be his "tao eh". the strained ties. the bad blood. gone. a start of of a new page. a brotherhood. he was brought in by ky.
we had fun together. that night at samuel's house. 6th june 2006. elvis bdae was also around the corner. enjoyed that stayover. june holidays too. the night we spent on pulau ubin. the night cycling. the night that we endured the harsh rain on pulau ubin. that sleepless night. the promise to return there once again together. has it all become memories? or has it become some empty promises?
what caused him to commit those mistakes? to backstab us. to strike us down after what we did. it is all because of the lack of trust and the fear of being left out on his part. can i blame him for that? is it because we never reassured him enough? that he is one of us.
can everything go back to how it was? i don't know. i need an answer. a way out. someone show me the way. lost again i am.
fate? destiny? whatever you call it. are they the cause behind this? or are we the cause for it? should i just say too bad and let go? or should i rekindle this brotherhood again? like what happened to dk and sam?
things will never be the same the second time round.
saw wen jie when we were leaving the sch. just a nod of acknowledgement between the two of us. why must things become like this? few weeks ago, we were still so close. calling each other "xiao eh" and "tao eh". did the lack of trust really destroyed our brotherhood? have things took a big cycle and went back to where we were when we were in sec 2? when wen jie and me were enemies?
back in sec 2, we had some bad blood between each other. because of a girl. yah. so back then, my head would be his prize and his ass being my victory. we want each other dead. gone from this world. soon things dead down. because i won the war? or maybe because he gave on hunting me down?
back to our own life. but it seems like it is destinied that our paths would cross again. this time. my brother rc wanted his ass and vice versa. early july. annual cross country. the showdown. almost got into a gang fight. wen jie's cliques versus dunman basketball team. i was there. rc apologised for what he did. it end. but from that day onwards. the tension was even more strained. i wanted his ass more. the victory would be mine. all mine.
came sec 3. damn. wonder if its heaven's will. we are in the same class. i still remember what rc told me. to control my temper. to call him for help if things went out of hand. i still remember. first day of sch. i was prepared for a brawl. one on wen jie's close friend. i was wondering if i would survive. being in the same class as him for 2 years.
a twist of fate? we got close. he wanted me to be his "tao eh". the strained ties. the bad blood. gone. a start of of a new page. a brotherhood. he was brought in by ky.
we had fun together. that night at samuel's house. 6th june 2006. elvis bdae was also around the corner. enjoyed that stayover. june holidays too. the night we spent on pulau ubin. the night cycling. the night that we endured the harsh rain on pulau ubin. that sleepless night. the promise to return there once again together. has it all become memories? or has it become some empty promises?
what caused him to commit those mistakes? to backstab us. to strike us down after what we did. it is all because of the lack of trust and the fear of being left out on his part. can i blame him for that? is it because we never reassured him enough? that he is one of us.
can everything go back to how it was? i don't know. i need an answer. a way out. someone show me the way. lost again i am.
fate? destiny? whatever you call it. are they the cause behind this? or are we the cause for it? should i just say too bad and let go? or should i rekindle this brotherhood again? like what happened to dk and sam?
things will never be the same the second time round.
Sunday, October 29, 2006
hmmmmmm, haven't been blogging for the past few days. partially because there is nth to write about and i had been busy studying. miracle?
hahahahahahaha. well. i think so too. jeremy lim. one of the biggest slacker had decided to get his ass down to study? hahahaha. its different this time. its the O's man.
until now. i had completed revision for combined science and humans only. maths i still need some revision and touching up to do. currently revising english. revision for poa and dnt will come after nov 10.
haix. confronted wen jie. yeah. its a thursday. october 26. we settled all the conflicts and i am not angry anymore. i thought that it will turn out to be a brawl. 3 on 1. ky, jm and me on him. but it was settled peacefully. we talked things out. i am just filled with sadness now. again this happened. why? i don't know how to explain it. dong kai and samuel were out, but after one big round. we became friends again. why are things always like this? is it a joke? or a test of trust and loyalty? if it is a test for trust and loyalty. did we failed terribly?
seriously, i sincerely hope that after all these shit. the rest will remain united. and i swear again. no one is going out. absolutely no one. and from today onwards. i will treasure my brothers more, i guess.
4 years in dunman, the friends that i had and constantly talk to. are so little. but they are the ones that are true to me, always been there for me. like jun jie, ky, jun ming, rc and all those ncc dudes. its always us yah? a small network of friends doesn't matter to me. most important is that we trust each other and are sincere towards each other.
talking about sincerity. hmmmmmmm. there is one dumbass i want to mention down here. lauzh. ok. first i start off by apologising to wen jie. sorry for maligning you about the all talk no action shit. its this dumbass that said it. now. lauzh. are you so great that you are in the position to comment on my actions? did you outperform me in anything? are you sure that i am a person who say one thing and don't carry it out? use that almost useless brain of yours and recall. who helped you during sec 3? to at least join in and stop the discriminations you got? if i am an all talk no action person. you are dead by now. if i am an all talk no action person. the promise that i made to you that everything will be just fine, will only be an empty promise. since i helped you, i never felt any sincerity from you towards our brotherhood. have you ever cared about our troubles?
and if your memory is not failing you. who tried their best to help you when you got into trouble with that sec 3 ncc air cadet? who ran around pleading teachers to let you off? who tried to save your ass? who type the letter for your defence? who went and confronted mrs neo and mr sim for you and put in good words for you? and how do you treat us? if you think by just being our slave will repay everyshit. then you are wrong. cause we helped each other do stuff. not only you. remember who saved your life back on mount ophir? and how you repay them? you said a grand meal for them. and you call a wow meal that cost only $2.55 a grand meal? now who is that shit bag that is all talk no actions? get this straight into your puny brain. you bite the hands that once helped you. you ingrate.
enough of ranting. hahahahaha. one good news for myself. i had gotten over her. fast? i agree too. its my fault for being so devoted in sec sch relationship. sec sch relationship never work out fine. everything can wait now. studying for O's and working for money after O's comes first.
now. got 3 music video from blink 182. hahahahaha. feeling this, first date and the rock show.
some trivial facts.
feeling this was written by having mark hoppus and tom delonge going into separate rooms without talking to each other. when they came out they realized they had both written about sex. when they put it together, the song represents the lustful side of sex on the verses, the passionate side in the bridge and the romantic side in the chorus.
the rock show was written by mark hoppus and first date by tom delonge on the same night after the producer for toypaj told them they needed some "feel good" songs on their record.
feeling this
first date
the rock show
some may take time to load. have patience and have fun enjoying their performance.
hahahahahahaha. well. i think so too. jeremy lim. one of the biggest slacker had decided to get his ass down to study? hahahaha. its different this time. its the O's man.
until now. i had completed revision for combined science and humans only. maths i still need some revision and touching up to do. currently revising english. revision for poa and dnt will come after nov 10.
haix. confronted wen jie. yeah. its a thursday. october 26. we settled all the conflicts and i am not angry anymore. i thought that it will turn out to be a brawl. 3 on 1. ky, jm and me on him. but it was settled peacefully. we talked things out. i am just filled with sadness now. again this happened. why? i don't know how to explain it. dong kai and samuel were out, but after one big round. we became friends again. why are things always like this? is it a joke? or a test of trust and loyalty? if it is a test for trust and loyalty. did we failed terribly?
seriously, i sincerely hope that after all these shit. the rest will remain united. and i swear again. no one is going out. absolutely no one. and from today onwards. i will treasure my brothers more, i guess.
4 years in dunman, the friends that i had and constantly talk to. are so little. but they are the ones that are true to me, always been there for me. like jun jie, ky, jun ming, rc and all those ncc dudes. its always us yah? a small network of friends doesn't matter to me. most important is that we trust each other and are sincere towards each other.
talking about sincerity. hmmmmmmm. there is one dumbass i want to mention down here. lauzh. ok. first i start off by apologising to wen jie. sorry for maligning you about the all talk no action shit. its this dumbass that said it. now. lauzh. are you so great that you are in the position to comment on my actions? did you outperform me in anything? are you sure that i am a person who say one thing and don't carry it out? use that almost useless brain of yours and recall. who helped you during sec 3? to at least join in and stop the discriminations you got? if i am an all talk no action person. you are dead by now. if i am an all talk no action person. the promise that i made to you that everything will be just fine, will only be an empty promise. since i helped you, i never felt any sincerity from you towards our brotherhood. have you ever cared about our troubles?
and if your memory is not failing you. who tried their best to help you when you got into trouble with that sec 3 ncc air cadet? who ran around pleading teachers to let you off? who tried to save your ass? who type the letter for your defence? who went and confronted mrs neo and mr sim for you and put in good words for you? and how do you treat us? if you think by just being our slave will repay everyshit. then you are wrong. cause we helped each other do stuff. not only you. remember who saved your life back on mount ophir? and how you repay them? you said a grand meal for them. and you call a wow meal that cost only $2.55 a grand meal? now who is that shit bag that is all talk no actions? get this straight into your puny brain. you bite the hands that once helped you. you ingrate.
enough of ranting. hahahahaha. one good news for myself. i had gotten over her. fast? i agree too. its my fault for being so devoted in sec sch relationship. sec sch relationship never work out fine. everything can wait now. studying for O's and working for money after O's comes first.
now. got 3 music video from blink 182. hahahahaha. feeling this, first date and the rock show.
some trivial facts.
feeling this was written by having mark hoppus and tom delonge going into separate rooms without talking to each other. when they came out they realized they had both written about sex. when they put it together, the song represents the lustful side of sex on the verses, the passionate side in the bridge and the romantic side in the chorus.
the rock show was written by mark hoppus and first date by tom delonge on the same night after the producer for toypaj told them they needed some "feel good" songs on their record.
feeling this
first date
the rock show
some may take time to load. have patience and have fun enjoying their performance.
Saturday, October 21, 2006
hmmmm. i accomplished something great today. i actually studied for 4 hours!
i am bored now so i guess i will write a post to burn my time. went to her blog and saw her blog post. "you knew", what is it suppose to mean? i am puzzled.
erm, i have straightened out my thoughts. O's is coming. she should be studying for it bah. so that explains why she is so off and why she talks so little to me bah. can't blame her, by right i should be doing that too. so! i am not going to disturb her until O's is over and have faith in her. just hope that she will remember me because i won't forget her. it's 30 days til O's is officially over. omg it's damn long. don't really know how i am going to survive. but how i am going to survive, next time then i huan loh. hahahahahahaha. hope she will jia you for O's and can go lasalle. it's her dream i think.
and while studying. i remembered those shits that i had done in my four years of ncc life! its damn fun and i have some amazing records with ky.
the most amazing record should be having ky, elvis and me climbing the wall 60 times in one minute. so average one of us should do 20 each. hahahahaha. miracle? impossible?. we did it man. we even exceed the demanded number of times. we climbed it 61 times.
why do we climbed it? it goes like this. i still remember that we were in sec 3. just took over the training. that day we were preparing for the total defence day performance. but we decided to let the cadets play soccer. ky and i don't play soccer. so we decided to sit by the curb beside our sch's basketball court to slack and talk crap. along came sir zuotong. he questioned us why we were not playing. we told him the truth. he decided to help us spend our time wisely. so he came up with the sadistic idea. as we walked towards the wall with him. ky and i were discussing how we could climb the wall 60 times in one minute.
elvis that strong cyborg saw us walking with sir zuotong and got curious. he ran towards us and put his hands around ky and my neck. he questioned us what we were gonna do. and so. he got the privillege to join in our record breaking attempt. hahahahahahaha.
ncc holds alot of fond memories for me. although i am not really committed to ncc and my reason for joining ncc is that i had nothing better to do, i will not forget the time i spent with my fellow cadets. i still remember the days that we were being tekan when we were PTE, being pumped when we were LCP, learnt when we were CPL, passed out as 3SG or 2SG. and for some others, wore the lanyard as SSG and strived to be supernumerarys.
it's the phase of my life that i grew and learnt the most. it's also the period of my life where i knew so many bros. bros that were so extraordinary.
people told us that when we reached sec 3, life would be different. power struggles will cause many ill feelings among us. yah it's true. it happened in other cca in our sch, but it never happened among us. to us, our leader will always be shamir and whoever that was elected to be the usm doesn't matter much. because we don't crave for the power, we just wanna spend time and have fun together. yah i know other uniform groups looked down on us because we were a bronze unit, but that doesn't matter, at least we strived and learnt together. be there for one another. was there to share each other's load. and ky, don't blame yourself for pulling ncc land back to a bronze unit. it's not your fault. it's everybody's fault. and what matters the most is the team spirit we had, the process and not the result. other uniform groups achieved alot. true, they showed results but they never enjoyed the process.
i am really glad that i joined ncc. not ncc air or sea. but the happy go lucky ncc land unit of dunman sec.
i am bored now so i guess i will write a post to burn my time. went to her blog and saw her blog post. "you knew", what is it suppose to mean? i am puzzled.
erm, i have straightened out my thoughts. O's is coming. she should be studying for it bah. so that explains why she is so off and why she talks so little to me bah. can't blame her, by right i should be doing that too. so! i am not going to disturb her until O's is over and have faith in her. just hope that she will remember me because i won't forget her. it's 30 days til O's is officially over. omg it's damn long. don't really know how i am going to survive. but how i am going to survive, next time then i huan loh. hahahahahahaha. hope she will jia you for O's and can go lasalle. it's her dream i think.
and while studying. i remembered those shits that i had done in my four years of ncc life! its damn fun and i have some amazing records with ky.
the most amazing record should be having ky, elvis and me climbing the wall 60 times in one minute. so average one of us should do 20 each. hahahahaha. miracle? impossible?. we did it man. we even exceed the demanded number of times. we climbed it 61 times.
why do we climbed it? it goes like this. i still remember that we were in sec 3. just took over the training. that day we were preparing for the total defence day performance. but we decided to let the cadets play soccer. ky and i don't play soccer. so we decided to sit by the curb beside our sch's basketball court to slack and talk crap. along came sir zuotong. he questioned us why we were not playing. we told him the truth. he decided to help us spend our time wisely. so he came up with the sadistic idea. as we walked towards the wall with him. ky and i were discussing how we could climb the wall 60 times in one minute.
elvis that strong cyborg saw us walking with sir zuotong and got curious. he ran towards us and put his hands around ky and my neck. he questioned us what we were gonna do. and so. he got the privillege to join in our record breaking attempt. hahahahahahaha.
ncc holds alot of fond memories for me. although i am not really committed to ncc and my reason for joining ncc is that i had nothing better to do, i will not forget the time i spent with my fellow cadets. i still remember the days that we were being tekan when we were PTE, being pumped when we were LCP, learnt when we were CPL, passed out as 3SG or 2SG. and for some others, wore the lanyard as SSG and strived to be supernumerarys.
it's the phase of my life that i grew and learnt the most. it's also the period of my life where i knew so many bros. bros that were so extraordinary.
people told us that when we reached sec 3, life would be different. power struggles will cause many ill feelings among us. yah it's true. it happened in other cca in our sch, but it never happened among us. to us, our leader will always be shamir and whoever that was elected to be the usm doesn't matter much. because we don't crave for the power, we just wanna spend time and have fun together. yah i know other uniform groups looked down on us because we were a bronze unit, but that doesn't matter, at least we strived and learnt together. be there for one another. was there to share each other's load. and ky, don't blame yourself for pulling ncc land back to a bronze unit. it's not your fault. it's everybody's fault. and what matters the most is the team spirit we had, the process and not the result. other uniform groups achieved alot. true, they showed results but they never enjoyed the process.
i am really glad that i joined ncc. not ncc air or sea. but the happy go lucky ncc land unit of dunman sec.
Friday, October 20, 2006
since i have nth to do at home, i am going to write a very long post. a post about my bros and some other stuff.
hmmm, 4 years in dunman had passed so quickly and during this phase of my life, many brothers walked into my life. shall start with sec one.
yah, new to the sch. a new life, a new routine, new friends, new environment etc. sec one and everyboy should be quite childish and playful then. got to be brothers with jun jie, kang soon and maybe jun huang. yah jun jie huh? til now it's 4 years of hardcore brotherhood. it's fun with him. never had we ran out of topics to crap about and best of all, we haven't get into a dispute yet. next kang soon, my basketball pal. yeah have good chemistry between the two of us and we seldom lose matches. maybe ppl give in to us because we're sec 1 boys but nvm, the time spent with him is fun. hahahahaha, til now i still feel quite guilty, because i will throw temper at him whenever he is not playing to my expectations. so sorry and i have been trying to keep that attitude under control after sec 1. lastly jun huang, he is polite and easy going but i don't know why we drifted away, maybe it's because of us having different cca.
so came sec 2, kang soon moved house and changed sch and i was not in the same class as jun jie. so i had to get used to a new environment again. that year came many trustworthy brothers. rc, ky and dong kai. rc, he is damn nice lah. given my introvert attitude, i was sitting at the back of the class by myself but he called me over to join him. since then we got closer and became bros. yah i trust him alot and the time we had was fun. talking cock during lessons, making so much noise, going to toilet and chit chat. until we got caught by mr bernerd. so new activities, sing song during lessons. fun man. just too bad, sec 3 we were posted to different classes and we have different cca. so got drifted away abit. ky and dk. got to know them when through jun jie. and ended up it was the three of us who were always together. they both were fun seekers. we usually prank and suan the hell out of each other. they were super spastic and its very fun with them.
came sec 3, after a long holiday break. ky, dk and me were even closer because during the holidays. we were practically spending everyday together. got into same class as jun jie so we were close again. this year, many new brothers joined in. jun ming, liang hao, josh, elvis, zheng hong and some other more inactive ones. all of them were fellow ncc cadets but this year was different. we were no more followers, we were leaders now. yah, alot of things happened, many obstructions and problems arose and kept coming towards us like waves. it is through our sharing of each others woes that we got very close. jun ming and liang were borned slackers just like dk, ky and me. so we hit in off just nice. zheng hong on the other hand, was still naive i guess, always being bullied by us and was the butt of our jokes. elvis codename cyborg, fun guy, strong and childish still. hahahahahaha. but we all respected him. he kept us moving in the correct directions. josh! the blurrest among us, his kwoky hair style is one of a kind and his is damn crappy just like the rest of us.
last but not least, came sec 4. dk was kicked from our group. i seriously don't know why. maybe i started it. maybe i am the main culprit. but still. i don't know what went wrong. so at the start of the year. it's only ky and me. yah. it's always the two of us. spending the night outside, going tm and slack or burning time on weekends. wen jie and sam came along. wen jie being brought in by ky. sam by me. they two were fun bah. but sam was kicked. it's the group's decision. mainly because he always affect our mood with his emotional swings when we have outings. and slowly, jm and liang joined in ky and my wasting time activities and soon we got very close. i really like having the four of us together. having jun jie in will be even nicer but his mum is very strict. i really hoped that the 5 of us won't split.
and i am grateful to you. yah you mr rudy and mr imran. although you two suck to the core. you are the primary reason for the unity of our ncc cadets. it brought us together when we went through thick and thin together. irony ain't it? being grateful to the people who cause us so much troubles, worries, distress and hussles.
also, shamir. although the rest of us tried to give you the best. although we always gave you hope. we always ended up disappointing you. yah. losing the orienteering competition, poor results for spec course, turning ncc land from a silver unit back to a bronze unit and the cca orientation day. we failed you so many times but you nv reprimanded us. i always wonder why. yah, if we can go through the sec 3 and 4 life again. i am sure everyone would wanna give you our very best one more time. thanks for leading us all the way and showing us the way out always.
seriously lah, i hate being left on my own. my thoughts will run wild. yah yah yah. i know. relationship is all about trust and faith. but i don't know how to put it lah. my faith is filled with doubts now. not that i wanna feel this way. but seriously. i am always thinking if whether my faith for her will be betrayed again.
last year she promised me that after eoy exmainations, we will be very close and spend time with each other or roughly something like that. i trusted her totally always. but so what if there is faith? can faith save me back then? all along when things are going downhill, i always trusted her, have faith in her. but we ended that holiday. i don't know what i am saying here lah. i am just ranting again. i wanna have faith in her wholeheartedly now, i really do. but i am still being haunted by what happened then. damn it. i need someone to help me staighthen out my thoughts or at least stop me from thinking so much.
people always say that if you treat people nicely and show them kindness, it will be return in two folds. that's bullshit cause it never happened.
hmmm, 4 years in dunman had passed so quickly and during this phase of my life, many brothers walked into my life. shall start with sec one.
yah, new to the sch. a new life, a new routine, new friends, new environment etc. sec one and everyboy should be quite childish and playful then. got to be brothers with jun jie, kang soon and maybe jun huang. yah jun jie huh? til now it's 4 years of hardcore brotherhood. it's fun with him. never had we ran out of topics to crap about and best of all, we haven't get into a dispute yet. next kang soon, my basketball pal. yeah have good chemistry between the two of us and we seldom lose matches. maybe ppl give in to us because we're sec 1 boys but nvm, the time spent with him is fun. hahahahaha, til now i still feel quite guilty, because i will throw temper at him whenever he is not playing to my expectations. so sorry and i have been trying to keep that attitude under control after sec 1. lastly jun huang, he is polite and easy going but i don't know why we drifted away, maybe it's because of us having different cca.
so came sec 2, kang soon moved house and changed sch and i was not in the same class as jun jie. so i had to get used to a new environment again. that year came many trustworthy brothers. rc, ky and dong kai. rc, he is damn nice lah. given my introvert attitude, i was sitting at the back of the class by myself but he called me over to join him. since then we got closer and became bros. yah i trust him alot and the time we had was fun. talking cock during lessons, making so much noise, going to toilet and chit chat. until we got caught by mr bernerd. so new activities, sing song during lessons. fun man. just too bad, sec 3 we were posted to different classes and we have different cca. so got drifted away abit. ky and dk. got to know them when through jun jie. and ended up it was the three of us who were always together. they both were fun seekers. we usually prank and suan the hell out of each other. they were super spastic and its very fun with them.
came sec 3, after a long holiday break. ky, dk and me were even closer because during the holidays. we were practically spending everyday together. got into same class as jun jie so we were close again. this year, many new brothers joined in. jun ming, liang hao, josh, elvis, zheng hong and some other more inactive ones. all of them were fellow ncc cadets but this year was different. we were no more followers, we were leaders now. yah, alot of things happened, many obstructions and problems arose and kept coming towards us like waves. it is through our sharing of each others woes that we got very close. jun ming and liang were borned slackers just like dk, ky and me. so we hit in off just nice. zheng hong on the other hand, was still naive i guess, always being bullied by us and was the butt of our jokes. elvis codename cyborg, fun guy, strong and childish still. hahahahahaha. but we all respected him. he kept us moving in the correct directions. josh! the blurrest among us, his kwoky hair style is one of a kind and his is damn crappy just like the rest of us.
last but not least, came sec 4. dk was kicked from our group. i seriously don't know why. maybe i started it. maybe i am the main culprit. but still. i don't know what went wrong. so at the start of the year. it's only ky and me. yah. it's always the two of us. spending the night outside, going tm and slack or burning time on weekends. wen jie and sam came along. wen jie being brought in by ky. sam by me. they two were fun bah. but sam was kicked. it's the group's decision. mainly because he always affect our mood with his emotional swings when we have outings. and slowly, jm and liang joined in ky and my wasting time activities and soon we got very close. i really like having the four of us together. having jun jie in will be even nicer but his mum is very strict. i really hoped that the 5 of us won't split.
and i am grateful to you. yah you mr rudy and mr imran. although you two suck to the core. you are the primary reason for the unity of our ncc cadets. it brought us together when we went through thick and thin together. irony ain't it? being grateful to the people who cause us so much troubles, worries, distress and hussles.
also, shamir. although the rest of us tried to give you the best. although we always gave you hope. we always ended up disappointing you. yah. losing the orienteering competition, poor results for spec course, turning ncc land from a silver unit back to a bronze unit and the cca orientation day. we failed you so many times but you nv reprimanded us. i always wonder why. yah, if we can go through the sec 3 and 4 life again. i am sure everyone would wanna give you our very best one more time. thanks for leading us all the way and showing us the way out always.
seriously lah, i hate being left on my own. my thoughts will run wild. yah yah yah. i know. relationship is all about trust and faith. but i don't know how to put it lah. my faith is filled with doubts now. not that i wanna feel this way. but seriously. i am always thinking if whether my faith for her will be betrayed again.
last year she promised me that after eoy exmainations, we will be very close and spend time with each other or roughly something like that. i trusted her totally always. but so what if there is faith? can faith save me back then? all along when things are going downhill, i always trusted her, have faith in her. but we ended that holiday. i don't know what i am saying here lah. i am just ranting again. i wanna have faith in her wholeheartedly now, i really do. but i am still being haunted by what happened then. damn it. i need someone to help me staighthen out my thoughts or at least stop me from thinking so much.
people always say that if you treat people nicely and show them kindness, it will be return in two folds. that's bullshit cause it never happened.
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