tml is monday. schooling once again. seriously, my timetable made me lose all the mood to study. but nvm lah. just like what master said, if i get used to it, everything will be fine eventually. lets hope what my master said is true, if not, i'm gonna do what i do best and that's slacking.

met up with ky and jm on friday to talk cock for awhile after sch. while waiting for ky, jm practice his skills on ape academy. not bad lah. improving fast. think he more pro than me liao. lol. met up with winnie, kelly and vanda to celebrate winnie's bday.

went pizza hut to celebrate. wah. damage done is damn big. i mean to me. $10 for one meal. normally i won't make a fuss about it, but don't forget, i'm super broke this month. lol. but nvm lah, celebrate ppl's birthday don't huan loh money.

heard from vanda that her class is playing bball that night. i thought that it would be a great chance for jm to pick up some knowledge and gain some experience against some strong players, so i asked to play with them.

went down and play 3 games. won 2 and lost 1. in the span of the 3 games, i got 6 blocks and 6 steals. not bad defensively. but i suck on offense that day. seriously can tell. passing wise, still on off.

won game 1 easily i think. as for game 2. its 3 on 4. jun ming, jerome and me vs 4 ppl. forgot who they are. was losing at first. 7-4. then finally got a grip of myself, told them to turn the table around together. walked up to jm and ask what the crap he was doing all along and reminded him to box out.

after that, everything changed, jm played like what i expected him to. he grabbed almost all the rebounds. as for me, i don't need to do much, jerome's a shooter, just need to attract some defense to give him some space to hit shots. so overall, i didn't score much but gave out quite alot of assists. anyway, won 11-10. last game, lost 8-11. lazy to talk on it lah. no mood.

ytd. went out with jm, ky and justin. they were planning to extend their passports for their diving trips but too bad, we were late. so went to the concourse to pay for their diving trips. i can't go. no money, even if i got, my mum expect me to use it to help finance the family, haix, burden of the eldest son. sometimes, i wish that i have an elder brother, so i can be relieved of all these burdens. i think that i'm not the right person for this job.

slacked somewhere in the concourse to play cheat. hahahahaha. now wherever we go, there will always be a deck of poker, 3 psp and a rubik cube. lol. that's what u call mobile entertainment. play 4 to 5 rounds and i was the cheat king of the day. clear 3 games first. lol.

since we were somewhere in between cityhall, lavender, dhoby ghaut and bugis, we decided to walk to dhoby ghaut to eat the parklane wanton mee. ended up walking for 1 plus hour before reaching our destination. we were walking in circles lor. lol. but it was fun though cause we were like talking alot of nonsense throughout.

ate wanton mee liao, went to search for one pub, if i'm not wrong, its called liquid gold. after that, zhao home. anyway, my cousin finally came back after 2 years overseas and he's a pilot now. nice!

enough of updates.

anyway, been feeling moody these few days. don't worry, its not sch matters, they seldom bother me since i'm an all star part time/full time slacker. i think its partially because of friday's bball games. was tired until today, so felt kind of moody.

confidence can't be gained when u just say it verbally. no matter how much praises u received, u will still feel inferior. get what i mean? there are many regrets in my life, one of the greatest regrets is stopping bball for close to 2 years. i'm playing with my past experiences now. stamina and physically, i've dropped alot. as for the skills, imagine how much i could have improve in the 2 years? 15 to 17 is the golden years to improve and i miss it out.

don't tell me that i'll make a good bf. cause to me, being a good bf need results to back it up. and until now, my results are all failure. don't tell me that i'm an understanding person, cause to me, being understanding is useless, ppl don't appreciate it. don't tell me that i'm a good person when deep down inside, i feel that i'm not the same old me anymore. if the change is a positive one, i'll be glad. but somehow, the change felt negative, something like losing myself. just what the fuck is happening?

don't ever prioritise someone who only makes u an option.
its a grave mistake.