ok. weapons armed. time for some self defence. haix. seriously, i didn't thought that breaking up with kelly will let her have such a bad impression about what i did. hmmmmm. seriously, i'm stunned too bah.

first up, i am not playing or toying around with u. nv will i do that. i myself hate ppl who toy with others' feelings. so how in the world can i myself fool around with others? i freaking hell know what it feels like ok? i mean, yah, i'm a prankster. i bully ppl, i play ppl. but its all physically. like how i bully ky and some of my brothers. and not mentally or emotionally. damn it. nv thought that i will make u feel that way.

secondly, i am not trying to drag the relationship and made the opposite side suggest for a break up. i am full time trying to tackle the problems head on. finding ways to resolve everyshit that we are in. yes! and i'm almost done with tackling every single problem. u think i like working and studying at the same time when i'm such a slacker? so why do i have the idea of working? to freaking hell pay for my own phone bills to talk on the freaking phone! so that my dad would not have any reasons to scold me and my mum wouldn't get one hell of scolding because of me. i do tell alot to your friends regarding the fact that we do not know each other well. but i did not say that i'm not willing to try and know u better. i nv said it. and why i told ur friends not to tell u what i've told them? cause i know u will blow up. once u blow up, everything's gone. cause i'm planning to settle everything quietly by my own.

thirdly, i was fully prepared for a relationship. at some point in time after we quarrelled, i may have thought that i really wasn't prepared. but! what i wasn't prepared for was my mother's and father's reactions and quarrels. damn it. these happened so unexpectedly ain't it? who would have expected it? u tell me. if i can predict it coming, i would have been worshipped by millions of ppl now ain't it? damn it.

also, i did not ever think that meeting up with u was a bother. it nv was ok? if it really was a bother, i would have gone home the moment i had the chance to, i would have rejected meeting up with her. why would i freaking hell meet up with u until 11 pm or 12 am before going home and receive one hell of a scolding by my parents when they already had alot of reasons to scold me? yes, i don't give ppl attention, but i'm trying my best ok?

lastly, i did not ask that idiotic question first ok? u asked me first. don't ever think that u ppl can pick on my short term memory weakness. cause whatever bullshit i said. i remembered them quite well. also, i don't think i seem to be very alright now. were u there when i'm down? did u saw how sianned i was? did u know how moodless i was? of course u can't see! all u know is that u cried because we broke up.

i'm not blaming anyone here. like what ppl always said. it take two freaking hands to clap. hell yeah. so i'm at fault too.

and, we once said that no matter what, we tell each other everything and we solve it together. and not to falter, cry or despair. i told u once, result. no good. so would i dare to tell u everything again in hope that we will solve it together? obviously no! so i rather i take everything into my own hands and settle my own freaking problems. since all the while u insist, u don't want urself to be part of the reason why i do things. while i was trying to solve everything. breaking up would have to come up. how great huh? its my fault too, not telling u anything and hecking u also. communication breakdown should be the correct word.

plus it's not like i'm not there for u at all. i'm in nyjc. and u know it. so how am i gonna be as caring and available as the jeremy who slacked for 5 months after o's? i told u that too. and its not like i didn't care. i did asked friends of yours and my brother elvis to keep an eye on u. updating me with whatever shit that has gone wrong. i do care ok? and don't talk like i'm always at fault. somethings u told me ran through my mind all the time too. but i'm fighting against my inner self to give u my very best.

sorry for what i had just ranted. i need to make some self defence. clear my name. and also, say my piece. if not u ppl will think that i'm simply fooling around when i'm hell damn serious in that relationship. yeah. we're still friends. and good luck.

so anyway, went out with my mum today. lol. i need to clear some stuff in the morning. like calling cgh and temasek poly to clarify some shit. but my mum was so worried, she called them herself early in the morning while i'm still slp-ing. lol. office hour is from 8.30 am to 5.30 pm. i got tonnes of time to call them. but my mum. lol. no comments. maybe waking up late is a good thing. lol.

brought my mum to marina square. walked around with her. lol. then went to suntec city. had ample amount of time until sch reopens. so yah. decided to pei my mum. spend time with her. if not she everyday at home damn sian one. so my duty for the day. just pei my mum then go wherever she wanna go.

then my mum was spastic. went to town and bought corn flakes, scotch tapes and other stuff. almost bought fruits too. lol. there's tonnes of it back in tampines. but don't know why she bought it there. lol. and why didn't i stop her? nah, my mum long time come out once. just let her do whatever she likes lor. as long as its not against the law can liao. lol.

then my mum called my sis. told her that we're near her workplace. sis's reply? she called us to wait for her to knock off from work then go home together. her work ends at 6. back then it was 3.30 pm. wth. need to wait 2 hours 30 minutes for her. so my mum and i scan through the malls again and slacked in mac. until 5. then we went to times and free load.

6 plus. met up with my sis. they went to shop again. omg. they went into this guess shop in raffles city shopping mall. and asked for my opinion. lol. in the end still nv bought the hand bag. go for fun nia. lol.

after that. took train home. on the way back. my sis said my mum was crazy. went to town and bought those stuff. lol. spastic lah. end of post. bye.

victims of love.