time check. its 4.34pm according to my computer. the bball selection is almost 1 and a half hour away. should i go?

i'm down with flu and feeling abit feverish. had no strength, will i perform well? i told rc this. he said that its hard to play when u are not feeling well. i agree 100% to it. my mum asked me to stay home and rest. but if i don't go, will i regret?

i still got the most 1 hour to decide. must leave my house by 5.30pm. how?

why am i so suay? sick on the day of selection. maybe its hinting me not to go? sianned. i can't think straight now. i'm freaking tired after sch. been resisting the flu bug since morning.

for the pass few hours, i've been telling myself not to go since i'm sick. but the competitive side of me will tell me that, michael jordan and allen iverson both played and won games when they were down with sickness. and they both performed very well. but then again, i'm not michael jordan nor allen iverson. i'm jeremy lim. i'm nth. not a nba superstar.

its like the angelic side of me debating with the demonic side of me now. which side will triumph? haix. we'll know after 6pm.

but what scares me the most is, if i went for the selection and didn't make it for the team. can i take it? will i be able to swallow it? many will say that i'm sick. its alright if i can't perform when i'm sick. but still. knowing myself well enough. i will not be able to take it.

to go or not to go? someone tell me. if i'm going, i need to rest now. if i'm not. i can just take my clothes and go bathe now.