hmmmm. sch's starting again. two weeks passed since poly started. all seems fine. i'm enjoying my life in poly. sort of had a clique now. 7 boys. no girls. lol. even ky was attracted by poly life. lol.

there's a proposal for a project for web design. must be handed in by week 6. but at the end of week 2. i've finished almost half of it. gonna ask my tutor's opinion on my proposal.

anyway, there will be a basketball selection tml. should i go? or should i just miss it? will i regret it if i miss it? or will i back out when i'm in the team just like what i did when i'm in dunman? can my knee take the physical stress of the sports?

what is a basketball team all about? this question is still a mystery. at least to me. is it winning together? or is it about getting players together just to play a match and maybe winning it? is it all about winning? or is the process of trying to win even more important? if the process of trying to win is more important, then is it really ok to lose and don't reflect? is one man show more effective or teamwork more effective? what makes a good basketball team? how do you change a low rating bball team into a contender team? does training really help? or is it all about talents and potential? does potential has limit?

seriously, i am still pondering over whether i should go for the selection or not. what if i'm out straightaway? can i take it? what if i'm in and the basketball coach expects alot from me? i don't know anything about formations, can i make it in the team? i like freestyle more than formation, i like doing whatever i like in life and in bball. am i seriously a good choice for the team? will i make a good player in the team?

i have until 4 pm tml to think about it. the selection is at 6 i think. and my lessons end at 4. i still have the choice of providing my service to tp bball team. should i go? if i don't go and join the bball team. then there's 2 more choice for me. dragonboat or music vox.

dragonboat is more hiong than bball. requires alot of running. looking at the state of ky and waikit. it really makes me think thrice. ky and waikit had no problems with their leg last time. but after they joined dragonboat. both of them had leg injuries and need to rest 2 weeks. i myself, already had a knee injury. will i survive there? mentally, i'm alright. i like challenges. but physically? yeah, my physical is not bad. got gold for napfa, 9th in annual cross country and so on. but the main worry is my knee. i'm physically tough but then again, my physical condition is not good. my knee is finally making slow improving in recovering. but it has not fully healed yet. haix. how? what should i do?

as for music vox. first up, i need a band to join. problem will be solved if joycelyn and her friend join up with jm, wei xiang and me. but still, there's an audition. and its damn close. i mean the date. can we really get together an perform nice enough to get in? seriously, i don't think so. its been like 3 weeks since i last touched my bass. jm haven't played his guitar for almost one year. joycelyn and her drummer friend are pro. there's a big gap between them and us. also, wei xiang, my ex colleague, i have no idea how well he is doing for his guitar. maybe he stopped playing already. maybe he haven't. and after the band is formed, who will be vocals and so on? how sure are we that we are going in the same direction as a band? heard from joycelyn that her drummer friend play a7x songs. jm and i are slower. will he accomodate with us by playing slower songs? there's a big gap in our skills. will they wait for jm and i to slowly inprove? that i don't know.

sian lah. basketball, dragonboat or music vox? haix. life is all about making choices. and which choice should i make? will i regret my choice in the future? that's a very tough question. i'm pro at self undoing and getting myself into deep shit. so how? should i just say, "huan loh, tml then worry?" or crack my brain figuring out what to do?

ok. lets try breaking it down logically. if i join basketball, what can i do with it in the future? play for singapore? xiao. even if i play for singapore, u think singapore will stand a chance in olympics? no way, those countries that enter olympics for bball have players that play bball fulltime as a job. in singapore, u need to train and work. which sucks. ok. but joining bball will make me stronger physically due to the trainings. so maybe i will do me good when i'm in the army. no need be corporal for life. but then again, if i wanna train myself physically to make life in the army easier. dragonboat should by right be the best choice. cause normally, ppl who was in the dragonboat team will face very few problems in the army in their physical aspects. they may even find army slack. also, after joining dragonboat. being a commando should be more easily acheiveable than joining basketball. as for music vox, what can it do? go famous like blink 182 and earn lots of money? come on bah. this is singapore, not usa. even in usa. many bands are struggling also i think. true, singapore have some famous bands. but they are only famous in the region. and do they earn alot? yeah, maybe they earn money, but i seriously don't think they earn alot. plus, how many bands in singapore did go famous?

and so it comes down to dragonboat. haix. no comments. shall see how bah. their introductory fun roll is on 11th or 12th may. go liao then see how lor.

cca aside, i'm kinda excited. will be getting the slam dunk anime's vcd from justin. been dying to watch it. lol. hanamichi sakuragi and hisashi mitsui. my fav. lol.

anyway, updates for now. nth much happened over the weekends, so nth to write. as for friday? met up with ky, justin and jm after sch for pool. hmmmmm. kinda fun bah. alot of crapping and jiao weis. then went back to tampines. was originally supposed to meet up with hui jing. but don't know y. nv met up. they went to eat dinner while i went home for dinner and to wait for them. they wanna play bball mah.

erm. at first ky did not feel like playing. so yah. its 2 on 1 time. this time. its not by default. meaning not justin and jm vs me. lol. its justin and me vs jm. won 7-0. ok lah. its a very smooth match. i just need to drive in, assist justin when i had the chance. justin scored 4 points and i had 3 points.

second round. jm and me vs justin. ok lah. my target for us was to keep justin below 2 points. and we did it. won 7-1. lol. not bad. did the same thing for this match. assist jm if i can. in the end, jm had 2 points and me with 5 i think.

third round. no need think also know is the default match up. ok lah. i was doing fine at first. had a draw with them at 3-3. ky joined in. became 3 vs 1. win liao lor. lost 7-4 i think. damn it. they used my strategy against me. kept passing and assisting one another. lol. but nice job there.

fourth round. i lost to them but could not accept it. so requested for another shot. erm. was really doing very fine at first. led the match 4-3. until ky had to hit my already injured thumb real hard. lol. lost 7-6. omg lor. sianned. i think jm is really improving liao. last time 3 on 1 also can win. now its quite difficult liao.

after that, justin went home. i taught jm how to box out and go for rebounds. and taught him how to really defend his opponent. ky and his showdown will be in 2 weeks time. lol. so far, jm has a clean losing record. so i think he really hope to win 1 game against ky. lol. chit chatted at the basketball court. did some shoot around. then they went home. and came out again to meet up at mac to ton.

i on the other hand cannot make it. so haix. stayed home lor.

think thats all liao lor. gonna slp soon. tml lessons start at 9am. and pls pls pls jeremy lim, pls remember to call the company and get details about the job. don't ever forget it, u this stm bugger. lol.

i hope i have a place in your heart too.