i'm back. went for the selections in the end. played with a sore thumb given to me by ky and a slight fever. took one flu pill and went out.

on the way there. i knew i'm such a gone case. i was blur all the way. cannot feel any intensity in me. if i managed to get into the team. it will be a miracle. but still. i believe that there's still hope.

met up with rc and walked in together. reached there. saw alot of ppl going for the selections also. most of them seems to play for their secondary sch or ite before. i knew my chance of getting in will be damn slim given my condition. talked to rc and knew that mr tan jing yang is the coach for the tp bball team. ok, here comes the pressure lor. i nv thought that mr tan will be tp's coach. also, tp was the champion team. means their standard will be very high.

from then on. i know i'm out for sure. but i told myself. don't give up when you haven't even try. even u know you will be out. give in your best. or at least try. yeah. so i stayed throughout. mr tan wanted us to do some drills.

erm, didn't do them quite well. so yah. from then on. i know i'm off. no more miracles. i can't run as fast. my knee was hurting. i can't do lay up. my master hand's thumb was sored. i got a slight fever. haix.

after the drills. mr tan wanted us to play team match. i teamed up with some strangers. erm. play 3 points. once a team had 2 points. they won. played first round. i took the first shot. air ball. win liao lor. cannot even perform. haix. had a steal. but that's not enough to prove anything. my team won. my teammates scored the 2 points.

second match. i teamed up with another set of strangers to play with my first round teammates. yeah. my teammates went to me. i missed all my three shots. haix. i cannot focus. i don't know why. gave my opponent a block. but that too, wasn't enough to prove anything cause my team lost 2-0.

so yah. i didn't make it at the end of the day. out of so many ppl who went. mr tan only needed 15 players. seriously. those who were chosen were really good. they played for their secondary sch before. i didn't. someone who didn't played for any team and going there to try out is already considered thick skin.

i don't blame my condition. cause seriously, if u are really a good player. no matter what the situation is, u can still at least perform. from this, the bottomline is. i'm not a good and consistent player. and i seriously don't deserve a place in the team. so now, i can stop dreaming of playing for tp. and find other ccas.

this calls for a reflection. i need to train up. winning games against some puny streetballers ain't anything to be proud of. being in a champion team is. so i consider myself a loser.

think thats all. hope i will be fine tml. pls, let me recover tml.