back for the sake of updating weekly. life has been the same for weeks so i don't really know what to blog about. feeling a lil bit random today, so i think i'll just keep on typing on how i feel about random stuff and some random facts about me.

first up, eventhough i always wanted to have a car, its been my dream to own a scooter since young. a vespa should be ok. and coupled with the helmet i saw at zinc tampines mall with ky. perfect!

i always thinks that ppl who attempt suicide are pathetic. this life u have can be given to others who are fighting for their dear lives right now. u have a choice. think about those who lost their lifes in the tsunami years ago and the earthquake last year, do they have a choice?

i think guys who abuse their girlfriend or wife should have their balls clamped and electrocuted. thats pathetic. u call urself a man by whacking the hell out of a weaker sex who can't match ur strength?

i think ppl who cheat on their partner are seriously fucked up. do u know what kind of damage u are doing to the victim?

i think time heals all wounds but there will always be a scar.

love with no status is a definite no way for me now. got so fucked by it. once bitten twice shy and i don't think i have any more of me left to go through with another one like this.

i think i have quite a strong mind power when it comes down to doing things i like. wanna try outlasting me in a bball match?

ask me what's my biggest achievement in bball and i will say winning a practice match against the dunman all star team way back in sec 1. razif, rc and hong yu against kang soon, josh and me. can u believe it? and oh yah, i hit the game winning 3 pointer. dig that!

i've always have this fantasy of hitting a game winning shot right at the buzzer in a real life bball competition. how orgasmic will that be man!?! the adrenaline rush, the freezing of time during the few seconds span, all eyes on you and the shot and you seeing nth but the rim.

biggest sporting achievements when i'm young? completing the 3km endurance swim without stopping at the age of 7 or 8. thats 60 laps ppl. 60.

biggest sporting achievements during secondary school days? coming in 9th in annual cross country during sec 2. sure, anyone can complete a 4km run. it maybe short for alot of ppl. but try winning a medal when u were pitted against the others. there's guys from soccer team and basketball team that i outran and i am only from ncc. if u wanna achieve big, you have to start small and win small. =)

nicest physical feelings in the world? shitting, peeing, being full, sleeping and orgasm. value: pricelesss.

my gang of brothers and i have stated that we will be a gang for life. "team18 holdings" until old age and maybe in the netherworld. however, i don't wanna be the first to die and neither will i want to be the last to die. its good to come in first for things, but being the first to die sounds pathetic. and being the last to die? how boring will life be when the other brothers are dead? sitting in coffee shop all by urself and reminiscing about the past is worse than dying i guess.

i'm afraid of growing fat cause my mum makes growing fat sounds like its worse than having cancer. hahahahahaha.

i'm only 5 weeks into my internship and i'm bored to death by the routine. i can't imagine how i am gonna stay with a company for couple of decades man. damn.

i think i'm old right now. i can't take the fact that i'm 20 for the coming 9th march. holy shit!

i don't scold "fuck" because i'm a vulgar person. its just that i think "fuck" sounds superbly nice. however, too much "fuck" turns me off.

i may appear hardworking to alot of ppl because i complete my work fast and on time. but thats for a higher purpose called slacking without huan loh-ing. whats the point of having fun when u can feel guilty of not completing ur work? man. this is what i call the full mastery in the art of slacking. free in mind and soul. lol.

i am not close to my younger brother at all. we have bipolar characteristics. he's a fulltime geek and i'm a 100% slacker. the hardworking traits that my parents have run in his blood and my blood contains their gl-ness. he listens to r&b sang mostly by female artists and i worship blink 182 and other punk rock/pop punk bands. ever thought of how a conversation between a geek and a guai lan slacker will be? hahahahaha. want a recording of that?

westlife during lower primary. jay chou and some punk rock during upper primary and lower sec. punk rock and pop rock since then until now and it'll stay that way until i die. at least thats what i think now.

i love beautiful things. so don't blame me when i stare at a pretty girl. hahahahaha. can't help it. the same goes for an artpiece or a photo.

i have short attention span. roughly ranging from 15 to 45 minutes. but during this time, i am super efficient.

i think the "s" on superman's chest stands for "stupid". fancy wearing he's redhot underwear in the wrong sequence as compared to a human being.

i don't speak much to acquaintances for i fear that i'll offend them. i'm super guai lan and i'll nv know when i'll say the wrong things.

i think my gang of brothers are not normal. and we have a long records that dates back to our secondary school days as evidences.

i think i have quite a good temper but if u know the keys and codes to seriously piss me off, its like a dormant volcano exploding. epic! the top prize for this achievement goes to my mum. and my sis earns the honourable mention award.

i'm super glad that blink 182 is back but tom delonge still sings like he's in ava. this makes him sounds like as if he had a dick in his mouth while singing "all the small things" live onstage in jay leno's show. and thats not a good thing.

i'm a self proclaimed genius because i think i show signs of me being a genius at times. hahahahaha.

i like the freedom of being single but at times i think its good to be tied down by a girlfriend. how cool will it be if i have a gf who knows when to tied me down and when to give me freedom? hahahahaha. i'm asking for too much here.

i don't think education is everything but i think it sets the base for everything.

i think eq is more important than iq. smart as hell but fucked up as shit in the personality department and all u get from me is
t(-_-t).

i think drummers are cool as hell. and having a female drummer in the band will be fucking cool.

same goes to me finding a gf. i may be attracted to beautiful things but when i find that the personality sucks. it turns me off. but it'll be cool as hell if my gf is pretty and have good personality. any guy who has this kind of gf better cherish them man. you're one lucky piece of shit.

i wanna have 2 kids. one boy and one girl. jayden and jayne. continue the tradition in my family of having "j" as the initial for our name.

i think i'll teach my son to play bball when he's young and hope that he'll develop a love for it.

a choice my son will have to make when the time comes. drums, guitar or bass? lol!

basketball wasn't my first love. i've tried soccer and rugby before settling for basketball. i wanted to join my primary sch soccer team but found out that i have not much interest in it not long after that. i've tried for the rugby team too but didn't get pick because my friend who was my partner for the trials threw the ball below my knee. how the fuck do u catch that kind of pass? and how the fuck do u make the team when ur coach thinks that u can't catch?

sometimes i hold back during pick up games just for the thrill of coming back from a deficit and winning the games eventually. but i try not to do that now as i think its very disrespectful to the opponents. however, i may still do that during one on one to see how much my friends have improved and to find out their flaws so that i can give them advise.

my swimming coach wanted to sign me up for water polo. but being too mind fucked by all the swimming at age 7 and 8. i declined the offer.

biggest regrets in life thus far? being too immatured and quitting the basketball team. however, if i didn't quit the bball team, i wouldn't be this close with my brothers now. so i guess its a blessing in disguise.

its 10.40pm and i think i should slp. lol!

but before i go, blink 182 playing "the rock show" and "all the small things" live on tonight with jay leno.


the rock show.


all the small things.

i think travis rocked the show man. so did mark.

gotta go. night.