caption: my boys.. all grown up now.. All the best guys.. do urselves proud..i'm the skinny shit whose standing second from the left. and infront of us were shamir and hashvin. great times. under the great leadership of shamir. only respect to him. nth else.
i know, u ppl will be laughing your asses off now. i looked like one cock right? i think so too. ppl do change, everyone do look cock at times. but the main point isn't that i looked like one cock, its the caption and the comment.
many a times, i've wondered if i've matured in the course of my secondary sch life or not? even the slightest bit. and now, after what shamir, a respected guy by me, had said. i do feel that i've kinda changed for the better. boys do grow up. not just physically. but mentally too.
and also, maybe a times, i'll wonder if i will be this successful in ncc if shamir was not around to guide me. will i be the one who grew the most if i'm not under his lead? from a slacker to someone who know right from wrong? a nth to a supernumerary staff sergeant?
being lead by a supernumerary himself really is different. i achieved something shamir did. walked in the same league as him. but i still feel immature when i see him. i still have alot to learn. whatever i taught my cadets, are stuff that i learnt from him. but i still think that i've nv reached his standard. i hope i'm as good as him.
now, he said that he hope i will be someone special. after seeing it. i'm motivated and at the same time, lost. someone special? what am i gonna do? afterall, i'm someone without an aim. maybe i do have some. but they, however are unrealistic. at least in singapore.
which one of you knew singapore's whole national bball team? can i really be someone special in this league eventhough i have faith in it? my time is almost up. not saying that i'm dying. but i'm 17, and soon, i won't have the time to achieve what i want. to become an outstanding shooting guard. i only have 1 year left. i can't do anything by myself, so i've assembled myself a bball team with my brothers.
center: justin
power forward: jun ming
small forward: joshua
shooting guard: me
point guard: khai yew
how long can we last? i'm not saying our brotherhood. it'll last a lifetime. i'm referring our bball venture. seriously, after assembling them, we've become quite formidable. rarely lost. but we can't do it for long. afterall 3 of them are in jc. a levels is next year and they have their respective ccas too. after a's, its ns. what should i do? with just jm and i? afterall, we 2 only got one more year than them before facing the same fate as them.
after ns, i think we'll be busy with our lives. afterall living in singapore is all about chiong-ing. how? will i become great? 1 year. its not very long, but its not very short too. what can i achieve?
sometimes i wished that time would stop, but it just won't. with every seconds that's ticking by, it means that i'm 1 second older, i'm one second closer to death. i don't wanna die without accomplishing what i've always dreamt of.
knee injury? off with it, i've endured it for so long because i don't wanna give up without trying. i wished that i'm more talented, more gifted but as everyone is improving greatly in my team, i'm only moving forward in a very slow pace. how? i've reached my limit? haix.
utterly lost for words now. gonna slp and it'll be intensive weight lifting later on.
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