yo, guess what? i was gl-ed to the max by a fellow bballer at my estate. hahahaha. big ass pussy right? hahahaha.

right now. i'm feel that i'm at peace with myself. i actually withstood provocation and i think it takes alot of willpower and discipline. its not that i don't wanna fight back and school that guy. its just that i don't see the need to.

my purpose of going down today was to do some zero-in after monday's weight lifting. its a routine. weight lifting on monday, zero-in on wed and then serious training on sat or sun. wed is a must, if not, the weight lifting on monday will screw up my strength control.

wanted to do solo shoot around but an acquaintance asked me to play with them so joined in. resisted the temptation of driving the lane and kept on shooting. really need to zero-in. so missed tonnes of shots. expected. airballs somemore leh. hahahaha. noob.

so yah. got gl-ed. didn't fight back. here's my take on it. basketball to me, is all about respect. i'm not a kick ass player, but when i'm facing weaker players, i don't taunt them. respect, period.

so yeah. i'm not focused during that game. so what? i'm just there to zero-in on my shots for saturday's training with samuel. u wanna guai lan me? go ahead. have fun. i hope you enjoy it.

u see, i've put so much effort into my training and i don't wanna sully my dignity by going all out just to prove that i can win u. what's the point? childish act. "yeah! i schooled u, faggot!" u actually get a kick out of that?

me? i wanna play my very best when it actually mattered the most. to play with a player that i respect, to protect a friend's dignity and so on. now, these are the things to play for man!

lets take cheng yu for example. tp school team player. hell of a player but he's humble. he played he's best against me when i'm not even close to his standard and made me realised what i actually can do at my full potential. pushed me forward and taught me lots of stuff. great great respect towards him and look forward to playing with him again. samuel can tell it. when i shared the same court with cheng yu, i'm all about business.

to protect a friend's dignity? hahaha. hell yeah. i remember this one time at the sheltered court outside tp. i was there with justin and jm. we don't usually visit there. the rim there is shit difficult to score and it was evident. i didn't even scored a single shit during shootaround. enough evidence to show that i won't be a factor for the night if we got into some match.

some of the regulars there challenged us. good players i should say. its a 4 on 4 match. those players who were friends against us plus an uncle training there. their team? epic. a big size guy who's way bigger than our own center, justin. a guy who's leaping ability was off the hook. 2 guys who were somewhat skilled players. i will say, those 2 guys are better than me.

but one of them made a big mistake. before the game actually started, the guy marking jm happened to said, "i'll mark the moh peng." thats it, game over.

i'm not sure if anyone other than me heard it, but at that time, its full throttle. led the game 10-8 before justin got the god damn leg cramps. in the end. lost 10-11 cause we were outnumbered. if i'm not wrong, out of the 10 points, i had 8 to 9, all by shooting when i can't even sink one during shootaround.

so yeah. bottomline? i go all out when i think its really worth it. so if i'm holding back? sorry, it just prove that you are not worth my 100%.

anyway, xiao liao. standard chartered sent me a card. "come run with us again!" hahahahahaha. jia lat. then ky's forming 2009's version of team18s. holy shit. have until 16 july to consider. so slowly lah huh. joined last year for the experience. if i join this year, i need something to run for. lol. i'm not a passionate runner arh. its not like basketball where u give me a call and say ,"eh, jem, damn sian, play bball leh." and i'll immediately agree. different case!

wah. jit bai see xiao liao.

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