today's lecture can be said to be the best thus far.

a dare by anton brought the lecture hall to life and saved us from the hell boring lecture. hell yeah. nigel's the man. everything goes like this. anton, nigel, samuel and i were planning to watch the dark knight tml after sch. i don't know how it happened but one of us brought up the idea of jio-ing some girls to go.

so anton placed a $50 dare to dare us to ask a girl of our choice down. we chose han lin. lol. initially, i was the one taking the dare, but i back out due to some considerations. then nigel accept the dare. steady man. during bus stats break, he really go take the mic from the lecturer and asked han lin out.

debbie sis has the video of it. will post it here when i get the url from her.

steady man. he's the man. he has balls. lets not care what stuff did i huan loh. i just didn't took up the dare. lol.

$50 leh! i'm short of money for this fucking week. i don't care, whoever dare me with money next time, i'll chiong.

anyway, this is the kind of steadiness i've been talking about in one of my previous post. i guess ky, me and gang are getting more matured to do this kind of shit already eh. until now, we are always trying to act our age and lose the passion to create havoc like the old times. doing it on certain occasions really rocks arh?

anyway, plans for this week.

movie with sch clique tml. vivo on friday with ky. grandma house on sat. study bus stats on sunday. doubt i will accomplish much on sunday. lol.

looking at the plan, i think i'm in quite a deep shit. expenses will be sky high and i've already overspent for this week. aiyah. fuck it lah. go out enjoy, don't huan loh money. huan loh after enjoying lah. lol.

went to play bball just now. haix. i think my low self esteem is still getting the best of me.

was playing team match with some members of starlight grc bball team. i actually didn't drive in when i saw the opportunity to and instead passed the ball to a teammate. if i drive in, i know i can score. well, seriously don't know what i'm doing.

things got worse from there. i missed alot of shots and even missed wide open lay ups that i normally sink. what the fuck is this? this is a very difficult obstacle to get by. i've talked to justin to get some advice but ultimately, everything lies on me.

all i could think of when i was trying to bring out some confidence is that i stopped bball for quite a long time. i bowed down to injuries back then and didn't even put on a fight. i'm playing with ppl who belongs to a bball team while i'm nth. thats all i know. these are the thoughts that run through my mind all the time. wah, seriously fuck man. how am i gonna get pass this obstacle?

argh. gonna talk to justin online now. bye.

sometimes if i shout,
it's not what's intended.
these words just come out,
with no gripe to bear.