so today is mothers' day. what did u do for ur mum? did u get her a present? did u do something special for her? or u did nth?

well as for me, i wanted to buy her a present. but seriously, i don't know what to get for her. so i just decided to wish her and gave her a kiss. to me, actions speak louder than words. lol. decided to stay home for the day and then have dinner with her together as a family. pretty nice plan.

its been a pretty long time since i did some self reflections.

hmmmmm. where should i start? ok, after this coming june holidays, ky and jm will be even way ahead of me. ky will be in 3 more runs and jm for like 2 bah i think. one of them is the 42.195 km marathon. woah right? hell yeah. i wanted to join in, but i'm afraid my knee can't take it.

i myself don't even dare to run long distance alone from changi to east coast like jm, mostly due to the fact that where am i gonna get help if my knee decides to screw up. this knee can even hurts when i'm walking home. stamina wise, i don't think i'm very far behind them but if this keeps up, then sooner or later, they'll be way ahead of me. so i have to find a way to strengthen my knees fast. walking home everyday is showing some signs but still very slowly. like i've always say, i don't want to start straining my knees if it haven't really heals. what worries me now is my toe, its so long since the sentosa trip but its still hurts.

i have to seriously recover and get myself back into shape soon. i wanna break into the 9 minutes 2.4 barrier once again. once i think my body is ready, its mind over body.

as for bball. pretty much the same old me, suck on shooting. i think we seriously need to get some energy out there nowadays cause we are like losing most of the time already, come on guys, we know what we can do, so don't under perform man.

hmmmmm, i'm 18 this year and compared to kobe, i'm very far behind. he's in the nba draft at this age and i sitting in front of the com thinking of being at the draft. lol. its pretty true that singaporeans won't make it big in terms of sports but then again, nothing is impossible ain't it?

i've always believe that we should tab into our abilities and used them to the fullest, but however, its a waste that i didn't think like wise way back in the secondary sch days. wasted the chance to tab into my talent by skipping a whole lot of bball trainings. lol. biggest regrets of my life up till now, too bad that i matured too late.

but i still believe that if i work hard now, its still not too late. i mean come on, how late is late? if u believe, have faith and work towards ur goal, i'm sure u'll succeed, even if u fail, u know that u've tried ur best.

life's nowadays are pretty care free and nice. sch during weekdays weren't boring all the times. its true 1e05 split into different classes, but still, we do meet up in the e business centre like almost everyday, so its pretty ok. as for 2e01? getting pretty much in sync with them already, wasn't much of a problem as there are ruixin, debbie sis, samuel, xue ping, anton, farah and wang zai in that class. familiar faces in an unfamiliar environment.

learning to open up to ppl more, matured too late in this aspect also, but then, not that bad also bah, as in, not too late i guess.

brothers wise, meeting up on weekends every weeks and some weekdays too if we are really free. everyone's busy with their own stuff, this is the way life is. we can't always be so free like the post o's period. lol. like we've said, as long as the brotherhood is there, nth will go wrong. unless someone decided to stir trouble up once again, but i think its highly and close to impossible. what's left in our group are those really loyal ones.

so pretty much getting used to the life i'm leading now, pretty much satisfied. as for relationships? i'm such a failure, so lets not huan loh too much. walk one step, see one step.

hmmmmm. done with a quick reflection. nth to do now, sian.

i want you to know,
with everything i won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul.
i'll hold on to this moment you know, 'as i bleed my heart out to show
and i won't let go.