i've always believed that are ppl out there who are way more skillful than the current me. i've always believed that. the only prob is when will i meet them? well, i don't have to worry about that anymore. i've found a new challenge.

went to block 450 to play bball with justin, jm and alvan they all. was planning to play with them for fun since o's over. however, some pros decided to show up. so played 4 on 4 with them. jm injured his hands in the first game and it was 3 on 3 from there. teamed up with alvan, justin and jm to play against them. for the 4 matches, we lost all. its a good thing we only lose by 1 to 3 points and not by a big margin.

for all the 4 matches, we played 11 points, for every match, i was held below 5 points for 3 of them, somewhere between 2 to 4 points.

game 1, they were playing slack at first and i was having the hot hand. tagged team with alvan for a 9-5 lead but when they got serious, jia lat liao lor. miracle shot of the day? i burnt my defender my sinking a off balance fade away jumper. damn miracle, i was so stunned sia.

after they got serious, if was really hard for me to score. i managed drive in for a layup on some occasions but managed to sink only 50% of them. so all i can do is to assist them. even assisting them is a tough job for me. i was trying to find the best way to assist them with a pro guarding me. a minor lack of concentration and it would be a turnover for me. i can't drive in too much as they will tap the ball away from behind and before i got the hang of passing against them during the end of game 2, they predicted all my passing routes.

seriously, in this kind of games, some may lost the will to play, but i find it damn thrilling. afterall, i'm facing ppl of higher levels, it brought out my best, well, maybe cause i was off offensively for the whole of last night.

anyway, i kena blocked 4 times, was damn impressed. eventhough i gave out 4 blocks, i feel that the way we block each other was worlds apart. when i block them, i only managed to tap the ball out of their hands while they were shooting. when they block me, the ball flew out of bounds. see the diff? now i know how it feels to get block like that.

as for defending, i manage to partially shut down the guy that i'm guarding after using everything i got. but still, they still can assist each other eventhough one of them is partially down. result of pushing myself to the limits? blood clot in my toes, bruises on my feet, minor bruise on my knee, both legs aching throughout today and left knee having no strength and feeling damn immobile especially when its exposed to cold air.

vanda asked y am i so chiong during bball? reply. i stopped for 2 years. and during that 2 years, i always blamed something, especially my knee. i always said that i want to improve but i only talk but wouldn't do anything. if i nv stopped for that 2 years, who knows i may be on par with those pros? after i did some soul searching earlier last month and hearing what justin said, i seriously asked myself if i'm alright with this?

i don't care about any activities in sch, i just wanna train now and how long more do i have? ppl say i'm still young. yeah, but this is singapore, not usa, get what i mean? justin is serious in training now and thats good, like i said, win or lose, doesn't really depends on me alone, it takes the whole team's effort to win.

anyway, today i pissed someone off for the first time in tp. lets put it this way, if u really weren't disturbing me while i'm sms-ing and were seriously trying to ask me something, i'm sincerely and utterly sorry. its my fault to get my brother to spam each of u 150 sms-es. i thought 150 was a small amount but obviously, i was wrong, i guess 15 should do it.

but well, here's my explanation. accept it or not, its up to u. i am a very guai lan person. i'm well aware of it, so unless my target has extraordinary good temper or don't mind being guai lan beyond the normal extend like my brothers do, i won't gl them just for the fun or it.

in tp, i normally keep quiet and refrain myself from being too guai lan in case i offend someone. so normally i just stand aside and enjoy the show. i only gl others when i feel that they've gl me over the limit and i need to do something to keep them in place so that they won't step over my head. if not, i'm ok with all the suanings and gl-ing by everyone. i'll just smile, laugh and go with the flow. don't spoil the fun.

as for today. i was damn tired during lecture and my body is aching. was trying to sms my brother to chat for awhile but i kept receiving calls from u all that only last for 2 to 3 seconds while i'm sms-ing. thought u all were calling me but when i turn around, no one responded. so thought that u all were playing, got abit irritated by the interruption after the 6th times so decided to return favour lor. since i'm sms-ing my ultimate spammer brother, might as well ask him spam u all. seriously thought that 150 sms-es is small as normally our magnitude comes in thousands.

overall, i'm seriously sorry. u always appeared ok with all the suanings and fooling around, thought u were ok with spamming, thats y spammed u. now i know my assumption was wrong and thus, once again, sorry. ur friend called to scold justin liao, so i guess we are equal bah. let this matter rest.

anyway, jonathan was damn classic as usual, went to calculate how much justin spent. hahahahaha. as for justin, my master, thanks alot for the help arh. kena scolded somemore because of me. lol. thanks and sorry man. erm, u've made up for the dead rat incident liao. lol.

think thats all. damn, should ice my knee after bball next time.