here i stand
with lines drawn in the sand
on each side there’s an ocean
staring out to see the lights as they pull me in

it’s brings me close to home
i start to swim alone
the stillness of the sea
comes crashing at my feet
i try to watch the sky for signs of a new life
i try to stay with what i know

i don’t wanna follow sorrow down
i don’t wanna live a life without
the past is over now

i don’t wanna ever let you down
i don’t wanna die, i don’t know how
i hope you’ll stick around
we’re lost until we’re found

i had that dream
where i just can’t wake up
i’m standing on the edge of my little world
i’m filled with silent sounds and bliss

with little to believe
i think i found the words
a story to be heard
with every whisper

i try to watch the skies for signs of a new life
there’s so much that we don’t know

i don’t wanna follow sorrow down
i don’t wanna live a life without
the past is over now

i don’t wanna ever let you down
i don’t wanna die, i don’t know how
i hope you’ll stick around

you never know, you’re high or low
there is a lot i’ve got to learn
you start so fast, you never last
thinking the time was mine to burn

you never know, you’re high or low
there is a lot i’ve got to learn
you start so fast, you never last

i don’t wanna follow sorrow down
i don’t wanna
the past is over now

i don’t wanna ever let you down
i don’t wanna die, i don’t know how
i hope you’ll stick around
you’re lost until you’re found

oh, you’re lost until you’re found
oh, you’re lost until you’re found
oh, you’re lost until you’re found
oh

tonnes of thoughts running in my head now. guess this one month will be my last month focusing on bball. learnt that we dont always get what we want after a heart to heart talk session with a couple of friends. time to stop, i'm missing out on so much opportunities along the way. 13 years. its not that easy to put down. sometimes, it feels like i'm at a crossroad. i wanna take a step forward and move on but when i think about the years spent on it, i'm afraid i might regret that decision. seriously, i know my skill level is pretty high if i get real serious, but despite that, i still feel quite useless at times because bball is the only thing i'm good at. wonder how i will feel like after putting it down? wonder what life will be without it?

i feel like renting a bike and just cycle around for one day on my own. just explore. disappear. maybe i'll do that next week.

hmmmm. i might have gotten my hands on something that i can't handle right now. i guess i shouldn't approach this situation with the thought of failure in mind at all. i might not be the best for it right now but as long as i give it my best, everything will be fine.

had too much time on my hands and went back to friendster to read up on all the old testimonials. remembered how i used to be. great life back then, great outlook on life back then also.

hitting 21 soon. time to take on the obstacles in life head on. dig deep jem, dig deep. it'll be a long fight till the end.

we don't live our life just to find our purpose for living. its what we do in our short lifetime that matters.

guess i should learn from my old self and dont be so hard on myself at times, have a simple outlook on life, just do the best i can in everything and enjoy every single processes as they unfold.

be optimistic, asshole. =)