4 days to first monthsary. 8 january 2009, i had my first ankle injury. 4 february, i had my second. ok, go ahead and laugh peeps. i wasn't being stubborn i swear. my ankle had fully healed. it was evident. today, i was just down on my luck and its just another accident.

erm, i kinda crashed into samuel's leg while marking him and then kaboom, i'm lying on the floor holding on to my left leg. that instance, all that ran through my mind was, "this is big fuck. this is big fuck. there goes my so called career and league series should be days away and i'm in this state again."

samuel and anton sent me home and when my mum knew about this, i had a dreadful round of scolding. she asked me to stop playing bball. it kinda got me thinking while i was sitting on the toilet bowl shitting.

lets do the mathematics ok? from primary 2 to poly year 2, that's 11 years of bballing. what have i got from it? no sch team selection, a spot in an outside bball team which was inactive for 4 years, 1 minor biz shield championship trophy which i didn't even play and 4 injuries concentrated on the left side of my body. 11 years should be enough, its time to stop.

also, i've woke up from my dream long time ago. every nba player just said that if u believe in it and work hard, you'll get there someday. i believed in it, i've work hard but i have no talent so, time to focus on something else.

but hah, if u think that i'm gonna stop just like this. hell no. i'm ok with me not being on a sch team. i'm ok with me not having any trophy for major competitions. i'm ok with me never having the chance to play in the nba. i've ok with me not having any talent. but i'm not ok if i give up. the reason i kept on playing is because i have the passion for bball. i just wanna play.

i don't mind playing bball around any streetball courts. i don't mind if there's no fame. its all ok. i'll improve at my own pace. i'll be satisfied winning those pick up matches. i'll be satisfied as long as i can shoot the ball for my whole life. words from a loser u may say. but i'll be a bigger loser if i quit now.

my mind's set. try to persuade me all u want peeps. try. i just wanna play.

over and out.